I guess I owe a few updates here. Sean’s MRI was negative for any problems with his meniscus or his ACL it turns out its bursitis in his knee with a little fluid that is causing his pain. They gave him some exercises to do and told him to take it easy for a little while till the pain ceases. I thought it was fantastic news but he was still very grumpy I think he was a little disappointed he wouldn’t be getting that attentions that surgery would get him. Oh well the sacrifices we must make.

Sara is pushing forward with the graduating early quest. She is making an appointment with the guidance counselor next week so we can discuss the option. I have tried to explain to her no matter how bad she thinks high school is she might regret hurrying out of it into the real world. It doesn’t help that a college coach is calling and all excited at the prospect that she may be coming there in the fall and joining the swim team. I really need some help here with this one and not quite sure who to talk to about it. It may come down to we can’t afford to do it and that will be that but I hate to have that as a reason if she is really determined to do it.

I went yet again to visit Ian in Fred yesterday taking him his new feet and meds and delivering his best friend Joe to hang with him for the night. It was a nice ride down catching up with Joe and then hanging out with them and Erin for a while. I was almost tempted to stay and go out drinking with them. But saner minds prevailed and I came home to my job of picking kids up and putting horses to bed like I am suppose to. I told Ian I would go out bar hopping in Fredonia with him on his 21 birthday that way I wouldn’t feel like I was aiding and abetting an underage drinker. Both Joe and he survived their reunion and had a great time like always. He will be home in a few weeks for his spring break for a whole week.

The 2 middle children went to a Rave last night at a local church. I was told a rave is a crazy dance party with techno music where everybody dresses up in funny clothes and dances like wild, crazy nuts. Sara went with a few of her friends before hand to Salvation Army and picked up a few prime outfit items. She loved the red pants she found. It must have been a successful rave because they both are sore and tired today for all that crazy dancing.

Sean has almost paid off his debt for the new phone charger. He was out shoveling horse poop with me. I told him he was almost there with the payoff and he seemed surprised that he still owed me. I explained the hourly wage of 7.35 an hour and he only worked 2 hours so far so he still owed me. He didn’t seem to think that was fair that his work was worth more than that. I gave him a choice either the minimum wage or farm wage. Farm wage is 4.55 an hour guess which one he picked. We are trying to teach especially him what things cost and how much one has to work to get these things. Megan is next.

Well I have horse poop perfume and I am cold so it off to the hot shower for me. Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.

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Last Saturday I spent the first half weepy and the second half driving to Fredonia to see Ian. I was worried about him for a change and after his slip on the ice the week before that I had this overwhelming urge to drive the 2 hours to see him and give him a hug. It worked I felt better and we had a nice visit. Dave and Meg went along for the ride for support for me. yea right.

Yet another week has flown by and I survived. I worked 4 days at my health department job in 3 different locations. I still love the job and the people I work with which must be a record. The days fly by so fast being that its such a fast past environment and that I am working with such fun and caring people.

I think I figured out why it is such a good fit because doing what they do they have to have a passion and be caring people so I am not working with people that are miserable and hate their job. It is amazing how the vibe can make all the difference.

You have got to be a caring person doing what they do at the clinics, that and a non judgmental one at that. We get some very crazy people in and some very sad ones in. I have definitely learned more about reproductive health and there related issues in the few months I have been there then in my whole life time. The hardest time I have is when the girls come in for the pregnancy tests and are so young and so lost and usually are seeking information on abortion. And then like yesterday when the 8th grader came in for a visit and they did an exam on her which wouldn’t have happened if she hadn’t had sex. Its great that her mom got her in and got her birth control instead of ignoring it but I have a 7th grade. Poor Meg got the lecture when I got home and I got my ewwwww mom no way not till I am married. Oh I only wish it would last.

The clinic is a great resource for these girls and boys/men also and we have gotten very busy at all our sites which is not only good to see the kids being responsible but it’s also scary to see how many are being totally stupid and dangerous in their behavior. Especially at the college where my main days are spent. I just hope my kids are smarter when they leave I tell you its going to make it even harder to let go knowing what I am learning there.

Today is going to be spent at a swim meet being a proud and loud parent cheering on the team. I don’t have anyone swimming but the boys are all a part of the family. I missed prelims and it almost killed me because my inside source wouldn’t text me what was going on. She is finally talking to me again but wasn’t into keeping me updated last night. Even if Sean had made sectionals he wouldn’t have been able to swim. He would have been on academic suspension for 2 weeks and missed them. He failed 2 classes last semester grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
So he is on home suspension. I am not being too hard on him he is worried about the outcome of his knee MRI on Wednesday and the fact he may be out of football for a season. We will know on Monday.

Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.

TTFN

arrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggg.
stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
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I am driving my kids crazy because I have become obsessed with the music from the musical Wicked. Both Sean and Megan got to go and see it on stage up in Rochester last spring. Their chorus teacher every other year gets great deals on amazing stage musicals tickets and gives the kids of our small hick town a taste of Broadway.

Usually when I latch onto an artist or musical I can’t stop listening till I learn all the words by heart. So this is the reason I am driving my kids crazy playing it over and over in the car and at home. But the songs and the words are so meaningful and a few of them are funny and playful. I guess I am just a frustrated singer that never took a chance to sing like I wanted to.

Sean chose not to do the musical this year. I can’t lie I am disappointed that he didn’t. But it’s not that important to him and he didn’t like the one they are doing this year. I am going to miss being involved this year. Unfortunately since he didn’t go out for it the resident idiot that everybody can’t stand got the lead. I am still trying to figure out what the director was thinking she is just getting herself a lot of trouble. Well I guess I don’t have to worry about spending 8 bucks to go see it at least.

Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
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Men!!!!!!

My men are falling apart. Dave, Ian, and Sean all have something going on mentally or physically that isn't good. Ian's blood pressure and drinking are a concern and he hopefully will do something to change things now he has yet another set of professionals telling him he need to make changes. Sean had a dentist appt today and has 11 cavity's and then it was off to the ortho to check out his knee and they seem to think he torn his ACL and may need surgery. Geesh I need duct tape to keep them together I guess.

Its a good thing that I am in one of my manic stages. I had a day at work on Tuesday that if I could have taken the way I felt at the end of the day and held onto it for ever I could conquer the world. It was a crazy busy day and 2 of us did what 3 of us usually barely handle. It was great we were super women and I felt competent, useful, strong and appreciated. I don't think I have ever felt like that at any job I have ever held and very rarely in my life at all.

I guess and hope that this feeling continues and I can help my men to cope with what they are all going through without killing any of them haha. I love them all and hate to see them in such spots of crap. I can't fix it but I can be there to hold hands and say things to help make it better.

Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
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Have Cape

If I could feel the way I felt at work today all the time I could conquer the world. We had to work with just 2 people when we usually have three so my coworker said oh well guess we will have to just put on our capes and be superwomen. So we did and we did a fantastic job of getting it done and all with smiles on our faces. Gosh I really love my new job can you tell. I felt strong and competent. It helps that I actually have people telling me what a great job I am doing in such a short time and that they are glad I am working with them. Never got that anywhere else I worked and definitely not at home lol.
Tomorrow is a "day off" and I am hoping I can feed off this feeling and get some much needed things done around here. Pinch me I think I am dreaming no wait I am off to bed and need to get to sleep so nix that.
I didn't get much sleep the past few nights because I was worried about the college boy. He had a little accident on some ice Saturday night and fell and popped his shoulder out of socket. Helplessness not being there to take care of him but I was able to guide from afar and he is doing better for now.
So I am off to bed where its warm and comfy to rest up for another day of challenges to conquer good thing I brought my cape home from work.

Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
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