modified football 08
homecoming dance 09
damn yankees 07Saturday, April 03, 2010
Spring has sprung big time. The past few days have been beyond beautiful. We slept with the windows open last night. I know its just a taste and we aren't through with the chilly weather but I have accomplished a lot these past few days.
Easter Break has started for 3 of the kids. Ian still has class this week and I get to work 3 days this week but the others get the whole week off. I have to sit and make a list of things for them to do so they can keep busy and not kill each other like most vacations. With the weather being as nice as it is, hopefully, they can help me out and get a lot of the outside stuff done for me. I am finding it gets harder and harder each year to get much of anything done. Its soooo frustrating when I try to rake of do other yard work and I am ready to quit after to short of time and not accomplishing much. I guess its time to finally call the kids out and make them help their dear old mother. This place is just too big for little ole me to take care of now.
I wish the energy I have had yesterday and today would stick around for a while.
We had our Easter dinner tonight because Dave has to work tomorrow night. I am waiting for the eggs to cool so Meg and I can dye Easter eggs for the basket. It was nice not to have to stress about that this year. the tax check was timed well this year. So right now I am enjoying the lull in the what seemed like never ending valleys and ignoring the stress in my life. I have to for a while I need the break.
Speaking of stress I was approached by a few people and asked if I would consider running for school board. There is so much going on with budget cuts and the like and our school seems to be making one dumb ass decision after the other. While other schools are dipping into there reserve funds ours is talking about making all these cuts and not doing that. Music, Art, and extra curricular activities are going to suffer greatly. I am tempted to allow Sean to go live with my sister like he wants too so he can at least have the opportunities he needs to compete because it seems Dansville is taking everything away. One of the things on the chopping block is modified sports for the 7th and 8th graders. Dansville has one of the highest pregnancy rates in Livingston county plus a big problem with obesity. Really smart to take one of the things that gives the kids a taste of up to as many as 5 sports in one school year so they can find one they like and that gives them something to do after school that is for the most part fun and self esteem building, (depends on the the sport I found). I know for a fact that if it wasn't for modified sports 3 of my children would not have succeeded as well in school. Sean is a perfect example of the child that turned his weight problem around because of it. And Sara if it wasn't for modified swimming she wouldn't have gone to school or worked hard on her grades it gave her a reason and then high school the art programs and swimming. There have got to be other cuts that don't effect the quality of the kids school experience. Like not giving the administrators a 10 percent pay raise and renewing their contract 6 months early just so its set and cant be touch. Okay done ranting for now I think. So I haven't decided what to do. I am not sure if I feel grown up enough to take on the school board. There are 2 seats up for reelection.
Well I am off to dye eggs with my baby girl and enjoy the rest of this wonderful weekend.
Stay safe, Stay warm, Feel Loved.
ttfn
Easter Break has started for 3 of the kids. Ian still has class this week and I get to work 3 days this week but the others get the whole week off. I have to sit and make a list of things for them to do so they can keep busy and not kill each other like most vacations. With the weather being as nice as it is, hopefully, they can help me out and get a lot of the outside stuff done for me. I am finding it gets harder and harder each year to get much of anything done. Its soooo frustrating when I try to rake of do other yard work and I am ready to quit after to short of time and not accomplishing much. I guess its time to finally call the kids out and make them help their dear old mother. This place is just too big for little ole me to take care of now.
I wish the energy I have had yesterday and today would stick around for a while.
We had our Easter dinner tonight because Dave has to work tomorrow night. I am waiting for the eggs to cool so Meg and I can dye Easter eggs for the basket. It was nice not to have to stress about that this year. the tax check was timed well this year. So right now I am enjoying the lull in the what seemed like never ending valleys and ignoring the stress in my life. I have to for a while I need the break.
Speaking of stress I was approached by a few people and asked if I would consider running for school board. There is so much going on with budget cuts and the like and our school seems to be making one dumb ass decision after the other. While other schools are dipping into there reserve funds ours is talking about making all these cuts and not doing that. Music, Art, and extra curricular activities are going to suffer greatly. I am tempted to allow Sean to go live with my sister like he wants too so he can at least have the opportunities he needs to compete because it seems Dansville is taking everything away. One of the things on the chopping block is modified sports for the 7th and 8th graders. Dansville has one of the highest pregnancy rates in Livingston county plus a big problem with obesity. Really smart to take one of the things that gives the kids a taste of up to as many as 5 sports in one school year so they can find one they like and that gives them something to do after school that is for the most part fun and self esteem building, (depends on the the sport I found). I know for a fact that if it wasn't for modified sports 3 of my children would not have succeeded as well in school. Sean is a perfect example of the child that turned his weight problem around because of it. And Sara if it wasn't for modified swimming she wouldn't have gone to school or worked hard on her grades it gave her a reason and then high school the art programs and swimming. There have got to be other cuts that don't effect the quality of the kids school experience. Like not giving the administrators a 10 percent pay raise and renewing their contract 6 months early just so its set and cant be touch. Okay done ranting for now I think. So I haven't decided what to do. I am not sure if I feel grown up enough to take on the school board. There are 2 seats up for reelection.
Well I am off to dye eggs with my baby girl and enjoy the rest of this wonderful weekend.
Stay safe, Stay warm, Feel Loved.
ttfn
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Good News For Sara
We received Sara's financial aid package in the mail Thursday and it is amazing. We still need to crunch numbers and decide how much debt she wants to be in before accepting the loans but with her grants and scholarships she was awarded it covers her tuition cost. Its kind of pathetic that the room board and books cost more than the tuition. But its a college she really wants to go to and we will figure it out some how. So Congrats Sara.
:)
:)
And its the song that never ends, it goes on and on my friend
Music is an amazing thing. It has helped me through a lot of major downs in my life and is apart of some of my major highs also. I have had a song from Wicked keeping me going these past few weeks but even that is beginning to lose its lifting power.
Shit after more shit keeps hitting the fan. The latest is my computer being attacked by a virus so now we have 2 computers out of commission due to some one elses malice and no money to get them fixed. Mine is not as vital as my hubby's because I have a lot of other things in my life to keep me occupied namely 4 children, 4 horses, a dumb ass cat and dog. But it was just another wave of what next.
It is really pathetic when you can't even afford to pay for the overdue fines on a book at the library to take another one out. After the bank mistake, which don't get me wrong could have been much worse and I am thankful for that, its been really a lesson in frugality around here for the past week and a half. The stress is overwhelming at times.
I tried last night to make a gratitude list but breathing was about all I could come up with and even that I am at times not sure I am even grateful for. It hurts to much. I am grateful but at the same time tired so tired.
So here is my attempt at the list of 10 again.
1. That all my children are safe and healthy for the most part.
2. That I have a wonderful partner in my life that even when we are yelling at each other I know that this too will pass and at the base we love each other deeply and always will.
3. That I have a job that I like.
4. That I have a roof over my head for now.
5. That I have wonderful people in my life that love me and are there for me if I only ask
6.
oh well 5 is better than one.
Off to the barn to appreciate my horses for a while.
Stay safe, Stay warm, Feel loved.
TTFN
Shit after more shit keeps hitting the fan. The latest is my computer being attacked by a virus so now we have 2 computers out of commission due to some one elses malice and no money to get them fixed. Mine is not as vital as my hubby's because I have a lot of other things in my life to keep me occupied namely 4 children, 4 horses, a dumb ass cat and dog. But it was just another wave of what next.
It is really pathetic when you can't even afford to pay for the overdue fines on a book at the library to take another one out. After the bank mistake, which don't get me wrong could have been much worse and I am thankful for that, its been really a lesson in frugality around here for the past week and a half. The stress is overwhelming at times.
I tried last night to make a gratitude list but breathing was about all I could come up with and even that I am at times not sure I am even grateful for. It hurts to much. I am grateful but at the same time tired so tired.
So here is my attempt at the list of 10 again.
1. That all my children are safe and healthy for the most part.
2. That I have a wonderful partner in my life that even when we are yelling at each other I know that this too will pass and at the base we love each other deeply and always will.
3. That I have a job that I like.
4. That I have a roof over my head for now.
5. That I have wonderful people in my life that love me and are there for me if I only ask
6.
oh well 5 is better than one.
Off to the barn to appreciate my horses for a while.
Stay safe, Stay warm, Feel loved.
TTFN
Saturday, March 06, 2010
Another Senior moment soon to be in the Past!
Tonight is going to be one of those lasts again, the senior thing.
I have been doing really well this year better than last time I went through this but its only 10am and I’m already starting with the tears.
Senior Ball is this evening. She has a beautiful dress and the shoes were purchased yesterday and in a few hours she will be dressed to the nines and ready to dance the night away.
I am hoping the rush to get 2 places to take pictures and get kids to there assigned pick up points will quell some of the emotions I am feeling today but only time will tell if this will work.
Sean is going also with a good friend. He has his grandfathers tux coat and a pink shirt and will look smashing even without he 120 dollar tux.
It’s been a long tough week with little to no sleep. These events bring out the pain of not being able to provide for my family the way I would like too. Not being able to even put food on the table lately has increased the stress level to a point of explosion. Fighting is a main stay between several parties in the house.
I have been thinking in my mind of selling the farm getting rid of the animals and moving into a small house in the village it would be painful but would it be anymore so than what I am feeling now?
After the mistake with the bank last week I am so tired of living below the line. Not being able to breath for a second, worrying how and where the money is going to come from to pay the mortgage or buy groceries. I don’t want to be in charge of the money anymore but after thinking that through I have to be, even Dave admits it would be worse if he took over. So I’m stuck and obviously incapable of getting it done. Talk about between a rock and a hard place.
I checked into going back to school again and took another step farther and actually filled out the FASA to see how or if I could afford to go. That just depressed me more because it isn’t possible right now.
So for now I am putting one foot in front of the other and trying to enjoy the pleasures in my life and trying to make it work for the kids as best as I can. Tired so tired.
Stay safe, Stay warm, feel loved.
ttfn
I have been doing really well this year better than last time I went through this but its only 10am and I’m already starting with the tears.
Senior Ball is this evening. She has a beautiful dress and the shoes were purchased yesterday and in a few hours she will be dressed to the nines and ready to dance the night away.
I am hoping the rush to get 2 places to take pictures and get kids to there assigned pick up points will quell some of the emotions I am feeling today but only time will tell if this will work.
Sean is going also with a good friend. He has his grandfathers tux coat and a pink shirt and will look smashing even without he 120 dollar tux.
It’s been a long tough week with little to no sleep. These events bring out the pain of not being able to provide for my family the way I would like too. Not being able to even put food on the table lately has increased the stress level to a point of explosion. Fighting is a main stay between several parties in the house.
I have been thinking in my mind of selling the farm getting rid of the animals and moving into a small house in the village it would be painful but would it be anymore so than what I am feeling now?
After the mistake with the bank last week I am so tired of living below the line. Not being able to breath for a second, worrying how and where the money is going to come from to pay the mortgage or buy groceries. I don’t want to be in charge of the money anymore but after thinking that through I have to be, even Dave admits it would be worse if he took over. So I’m stuck and obviously incapable of getting it done. Talk about between a rock and a hard place.
I checked into going back to school again and took another step farther and actually filled out the FASA to see how or if I could afford to go. That just depressed me more because it isn’t possible right now.
So for now I am putting one foot in front of the other and trying to enjoy the pleasures in my life and trying to make it work for the kids as best as I can. Tired so tired.
Stay safe, Stay warm, feel loved.
ttfn
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Your Friendly Neighborhood Bank My Ass
This is a rant about Banks so if you have no problems with being raped by your financial institution you might not want to tarnish you fantasy world by read this!
The day was as any other day with its ups and downs. More downs then ups but that’s nothing new. Went to my computer to do my weekly check of my bank account and see where I stand and bammmmm a negative number beyond belief. First the panic ensues then the rush to get the checkbook and double check everything only to find due to a slight subtraction error in my register I was overdrawing my account every time I used it with a whopping $32 service charge each transaction.
Now this isn’t a case of letting a month go by and not keeping track of my balance. This is in a span of 1 week. See I have been raped before by the bank in the past which at that time was there fault not mine but the answer was nope can’t help you not our fault. So since then I have kept a close eye on the account via the internet, balancing and checking activity every Friday or Saturday. So this mistake took place between the 19th of Feb and yesterday to the tune of 244 dollars in overdraft fees.
So we decided instead of rolling over and taking it this time we would go down to the bank and plead our case. Of course you get the pat answer “well I will have to talk to “HER” who ever her maybe on Monday to see if we can rebate your account but she will want to see it up to date to be able to do that. Little ole naïve me is thinking oh the whole 46.14 that I’m overdrawn no problem. NOPE the whole 244 dollars. Well gee if I had that I wouldn’t be here right now. So to make a long story short she will check with HER on Monday and see what they can do because there will be no money in there till Thursday when Dave gets paid.
Gee lets see we have been customers for over 12 years, we have 3 direct deposits into the accounts we hold at the bank, pretty good about paying our bills on time. Let’s punish them good for being such good customers. At least in school when you made a subtraction error you just got a few points taken off your grade oh to be back in elementary school again.
And the other thing that I just don’t get either is with the internet banking you can set up to receive emails when you account hits a certain balance why hell can’t they set it up so that when you pull the first overdraw they shoot you an email saying oops your going over your balance. I am signed up for the email notifications it just seems like the right thing to do but then I am not a FUCKING bank.
So the panic attacks have lessen a bit since going down and at least trying to clear this mess up but I have to wait till Friday to no for sure if I have grocery money for the next 2 weeks or if I am paying for some bankers bar tab for the weekend.
Stay safe, Stay warm, feel loved.
The day was as any other day with its ups and downs. More downs then ups but that’s nothing new. Went to my computer to do my weekly check of my bank account and see where I stand and bammmmm a negative number beyond belief. First the panic ensues then the rush to get the checkbook and double check everything only to find due to a slight subtraction error in my register I was overdrawing my account every time I used it with a whopping $32 service charge each transaction.
Now this isn’t a case of letting a month go by and not keeping track of my balance. This is in a span of 1 week. See I have been raped before by the bank in the past which at that time was there fault not mine but the answer was nope can’t help you not our fault. So since then I have kept a close eye on the account via the internet, balancing and checking activity every Friday or Saturday. So this mistake took place between the 19th of Feb and yesterday to the tune of 244 dollars in overdraft fees.
So we decided instead of rolling over and taking it this time we would go down to the bank and plead our case. Of course you get the pat answer “well I will have to talk to “HER” who ever her maybe on Monday to see if we can rebate your account but she will want to see it up to date to be able to do that. Little ole naïve me is thinking oh the whole 46.14 that I’m overdrawn no problem. NOPE the whole 244 dollars. Well gee if I had that I wouldn’t be here right now. So to make a long story short she will check with HER on Monday and see what they can do because there will be no money in there till Thursday when Dave gets paid.
Gee lets see we have been customers for over 12 years, we have 3 direct deposits into the accounts we hold at the bank, pretty good about paying our bills on time. Let’s punish them good for being such good customers. At least in school when you made a subtraction error you just got a few points taken off your grade oh to be back in elementary school again.
And the other thing that I just don’t get either is with the internet banking you can set up to receive emails when you account hits a certain balance why hell can’t they set it up so that when you pull the first overdraw they shoot you an email saying oops your going over your balance. I am signed up for the email notifications it just seems like the right thing to do but then I am not a FUCKING bank.
So the panic attacks have lessen a bit since going down and at least trying to clear this mess up but I have to wait till Friday to no for sure if I have grocery money for the next 2 weeks or if I am paying for some bankers bar tab for the weekend.
Stay safe, Stay warm, feel loved.
Friday, January 01, 2010
HAPPY NEW YEAR
As Ian aptly put on his status on facebook here's to 2010 it doesn't have to work to hard to be better than last year!!
We had a nice quiet night at home with 3 out of the 5 kids. Of course our social butterflies Sean and Sara had plans with their friends last night but Meg, Ian and Joe were here. The boys, Dave included had a marathon D and D game online while Megan and I wiled away the evening making great food and watching movies. Of course we watched the traditional ball drop in time square and stayed up way to late but it was nice.
Last year was really rough for all of us here on the farm. Way too many disasters to count and up to the eye balls in worry and stress. As I get older it gets harder and harder to push through all of the obstacles that are thrown into the path. But I do and only because of the wonderful people in my life that make it bearable enough not to give up just yet. My children are also very blest by these people in my life. They essential help me raise them and give them things I can't give them myself, opportunities they wouldn't otherwise have. I fight the feeling that I am a major failure as a parent but knowing how much everybody also loves my kids helps to ease that feeling.
I need to slow down as a friend put it or I will hit the brick wall and we all know it hurts when you hit a brick wall. So true Annette so true. Maybe this year will be one that I can finally do that and avert tragedy before it strikes. I know some major decisions are going to have to be made soon about living conditions and animals that I don't want to have to make but will be unavoidable much longer.
So I am going to savor the night with my family and the day spent watching movies and football and soaking up the love of my wonderful family and try to drag that feeling into the new year.
Here is hoping that everybody has a safe and snappy new year.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved
ttfn
We had a nice quiet night at home with 3 out of the 5 kids. Of course our social butterflies Sean and Sara had plans with their friends last night but Meg, Ian and Joe were here. The boys, Dave included had a marathon D and D game online while Megan and I wiled away the evening making great food and watching movies. Of course we watched the traditional ball drop in time square and stayed up way to late but it was nice.
Last year was really rough for all of us here on the farm. Way too many disasters to count and up to the eye balls in worry and stress. As I get older it gets harder and harder to push through all of the obstacles that are thrown into the path. But I do and only because of the wonderful people in my life that make it bearable enough not to give up just yet. My children are also very blest by these people in my life. They essential help me raise them and give them things I can't give them myself, opportunities they wouldn't otherwise have. I fight the feeling that I am a major failure as a parent but knowing how much everybody also loves my kids helps to ease that feeling.
I need to slow down as a friend put it or I will hit the brick wall and we all know it hurts when you hit a brick wall. So true Annette so true. Maybe this year will be one that I can finally do that and avert tragedy before it strikes. I know some major decisions are going to have to be made soon about living conditions and animals that I don't want to have to make but will be unavoidable much longer.
So I am going to savor the night with my family and the day spent watching movies and football and soaking up the love of my wonderful family and try to drag that feeling into the new year.
Here is hoping that everybody has a safe and snappy new year.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved
ttfn
I miss you Henry Happy Birthday!
Monday, December 28, 2009
Unique Christmas of all time
Wow its over its all over. It was quite the adventure beginning on Christmas eve and ending Christmas day evening. There is one word that completely describes the season the year and the word is unique.
Christmas eve I had to work to fill in for one of my favorite people at work. The day was quiet and a lot was accomplished which in itself is unique. Upon leaving from work I remembered that I hadn’t called my hubby and asked him to stop and get shavings and food for the horse probably because I had for the first time ever left the house without my phone. I pulled into the Tractor supply parking lot at 4:35pm and walked up to the door to see if they had hours posted and the manager inside came to the door and said that she closed a half hour ago but if you knew what we needed and were paying with a credit card she could help us. If that wasn’t great enough the food I usually get wasn’t on the shelf but at the bottom of a pallet of pet food that had come in on a truck a few hours earlier. So these 2 wonderful employees undid a pallet to retrieve a bag of food for my old girl. And all with a smile and a Merry Christmas.
The next adventure was needing to take Meg down to the dollar store so she could get gifts to put under the tree so everyone would have at least something to open. I had her call to see how late they were open and it was till 8pm. We headed out to go to Tops to get food which we had none in the house forgetting that Tops closed at 6 we arrived at 5:55pm I couldn’t do it, I couldn’t go in I had to get food not grab a few things. I of course had a melt down in the car how were we going to eat the next few days. I guess I could have had Dave do some shopping but thought no problem after work I could get it all done. Would have done it earlier but we didn’t have the money till that morning. Meg suggested Wal-Mart all the way up in Geneseo. Another call home to have someone call Wal-Mart to find out how late they were open while heading to the dollar store to do speed Christmas shopping.
Done at the dollar store in a half an hour and heading up to Wal-Mart which was open till 8 pm. I can’t remember ever shopping that fast but was able to get at least the basics to get us through till Sat. Didn’t get the usual food you would think for Christmas dinner I couldn’t justify spending a weeks worth of grocery money on one meal so we got something once again unique for the feast, the fixings for pizza and wings as suggested by Sara. We arrived home at 9pm pooped and hungry after a very long day.
I proceeded to have another melt down because basically I didn’t have anything to put under the tree for the kids. They were okay with it but for some reason I couldn’t let go of it and the feeling that once again I am a failure as a parent. It didn’t help either that stuffing the stockings later I found Henrys stocking and realized first Christmas without him and that Christmas day would have been his 12th birthday. Not that I don’t already have enough trouble this time of year. So I put in my DVD of it’s a wonderful life and sat and watched it and cried and finally was tired enough to go to bed at 4am.
I actually got to sleep in Christmas morning because Ian was kind enough to go out and do the horses in the morning. We did presents around 11am which was pretty unique and the mood soon turned to side splitting laughter. It started with Sara’s unique gift to her dad. She didn’t want to give him another tie or mug and she was thinking back to when she dissected the woodchuck on the ping pong table with a steak knife and an idea was born. She made a stuffed animal woodchuck that opened up and showed the innards. It was amazing and imaginative beyond belief and made everybody roll on the floor with laughter. Next was the boys gifts from Megan she gave Sean a whoopee cushion and Ian a slime that does pretty much the same thing so they were having farting wars with their respective noise makers. Its amazing that farting noises still cause such laughter even when the boys are grown.
Megan and I then took a ride up the hill to see Annie and visit for Christmas. She looks fantastic and her BFF Kylie got grooming tools and a new halter and lead rope for her and was happy as could be. We stopped at the kwik fill to pick up a few things for dinner and headed back down the hill.
Then the power went out. All I could think of was those poor people that had company over and dinner in the oven. We took a nap and by the time the power came back on we were ready to make pizza and wings.
The 24th and 25th could be described as a roller coaster of emotions and definitely unique. It will be one that we talk about later on as a do you remember the Christmas of 2009. I ended up spending the next 2 days in bed with the worst headache I have had in a while. Now if I can make it through new years I will be hopefully set for another year.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
And a Snappy New Year
Christmas eve I had to work to fill in for one of my favorite people at work. The day was quiet and a lot was accomplished which in itself is unique. Upon leaving from work I remembered that I hadn’t called my hubby and asked him to stop and get shavings and food for the horse probably because I had for the first time ever left the house without my phone. I pulled into the Tractor supply parking lot at 4:35pm and walked up to the door to see if they had hours posted and the manager inside came to the door and said that she closed a half hour ago but if you knew what we needed and were paying with a credit card she could help us. If that wasn’t great enough the food I usually get wasn’t on the shelf but at the bottom of a pallet of pet food that had come in on a truck a few hours earlier. So these 2 wonderful employees undid a pallet to retrieve a bag of food for my old girl. And all with a smile and a Merry Christmas.
The next adventure was needing to take Meg down to the dollar store so she could get gifts to put under the tree so everyone would have at least something to open. I had her call to see how late they were open and it was till 8pm. We headed out to go to Tops to get food which we had none in the house forgetting that Tops closed at 6 we arrived at 5:55pm I couldn’t do it, I couldn’t go in I had to get food not grab a few things. I of course had a melt down in the car how were we going to eat the next few days. I guess I could have had Dave do some shopping but thought no problem after work I could get it all done. Would have done it earlier but we didn’t have the money till that morning. Meg suggested Wal-Mart all the way up in Geneseo. Another call home to have someone call Wal-Mart to find out how late they were open while heading to the dollar store to do speed Christmas shopping.
Done at the dollar store in a half an hour and heading up to Wal-Mart which was open till 8 pm. I can’t remember ever shopping that fast but was able to get at least the basics to get us through till Sat. Didn’t get the usual food you would think for Christmas dinner I couldn’t justify spending a weeks worth of grocery money on one meal so we got something once again unique for the feast, the fixings for pizza and wings as suggested by Sara. We arrived home at 9pm pooped and hungry after a very long day.
I proceeded to have another melt down because basically I didn’t have anything to put under the tree for the kids. They were okay with it but for some reason I couldn’t let go of it and the feeling that once again I am a failure as a parent. It didn’t help either that stuffing the stockings later I found Henrys stocking and realized first Christmas without him and that Christmas day would have been his 12th birthday. Not that I don’t already have enough trouble this time of year. So I put in my DVD of it’s a wonderful life and sat and watched it and cried and finally was tired enough to go to bed at 4am.
I actually got to sleep in Christmas morning because Ian was kind enough to go out and do the horses in the morning. We did presents around 11am which was pretty unique and the mood soon turned to side splitting laughter. It started with Sara’s unique gift to her dad. She didn’t want to give him another tie or mug and she was thinking back to when she dissected the woodchuck on the ping pong table with a steak knife and an idea was born. She made a stuffed animal woodchuck that opened up and showed the innards. It was amazing and imaginative beyond belief and made everybody roll on the floor with laughter. Next was the boys gifts from Megan she gave Sean a whoopee cushion and Ian a slime that does pretty much the same thing so they were having farting wars with their respective noise makers. Its amazing that farting noises still cause such laughter even when the boys are grown.
Megan and I then took a ride up the hill to see Annie and visit for Christmas. She looks fantastic and her BFF Kylie got grooming tools and a new halter and lead rope for her and was happy as could be. We stopped at the kwik fill to pick up a few things for dinner and headed back down the hill.
Then the power went out. All I could think of was those poor people that had company over and dinner in the oven. We took a nap and by the time the power came back on we were ready to make pizza and wings.
The 24th and 25th could be described as a roller coaster of emotions and definitely unique. It will be one that we talk about later on as a do you remember the Christmas of 2009. I ended up spending the next 2 days in bed with the worst headache I have had in a while. Now if I can make it through new years I will be hopefully set for another year.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
And a Snappy New Year
Sunday, December 13, 2009
The most F@#$ing wonderful time of the year, yeah right.
Henry's birthday is coming up shortly he wasa Christmas baby. This time of year is tough
and it just got tougher.
I Still miss him a lot and still turn around and
expect him to be standing there or come out of
the bathroom expecting to trip over him.
I was going through pictures to post on face book
(my new addiction) and found this picture of
Henry as a puppy. He was such a little ball of
fur and looked like a bear cub.
I finally force myself to pull out the decorations last night.
I think it wasn't for Megan I probably would have passed this
year. The kids are older and I no longer have that overwhelming
urge to make it special. I know I should but it gets harder and harder.
Megan asked me if I liked Christmas and I said I do like especially the
music and spending time with family.
It is going to be another love Christmas I explained to her and the
others and they are OK with that but I still can't help feeling like
a failure as a parent and provider especially this time of year.
Too many monetary things on the plate right now with things that
are getting neglected that really need to be addressed and add
the "joy" of Christmas to it and bam.
I hate feeling this way I want to enjoy this time of year but
after so many years I am beginning to think that is an impossible
dream. So I will try and continue to make positive memories for
the kids like last nights movie, chicken wings and tree decorating with
Megan and muddle through.
Off to finish decorating and watching the rest of the movies
we rented.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel love!
TTFN
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