Wow its over its all over. It was quite the adventure beginning on Christmas eve and ending Christmas day evening. There is one word that completely describes the season the year and the word is unique.
Christmas eve I had to work to fill in for one of my favorite people at work. The day was quiet and a lot was accomplished which in itself is unique. Upon leaving from work I remembered that I hadn’t called my hubby and asked him to stop and get shavings and food for the horse probably because I had for the first time ever left the house without my phone. I pulled into the Tractor supply parking lot at 4:35pm and walked up to the door to see if they had hours posted and the manager inside came to the door and said that she closed a half hour ago but if you knew what we needed and were paying with a credit card she could help us. If that wasn’t great enough the food I usually get wasn’t on the shelf but at the bottom of a pallet of pet food that had come in on a truck a few hours earlier. So these 2 wonderful employees undid a pallet to retrieve a bag of food for my old girl. And all with a smile and a Merry Christmas.
The next adventure was needing to take Meg down to the dollar store so she could get gifts to put under the tree so everyone would have at least something to open. I had her call to see how late they were open and it was till 8pm. We headed out to go to Tops to get food which we had none in the house forgetting that Tops closed at 6 we arrived at 5:55pm I couldn’t do it, I couldn’t go in I had to get food not grab a few things. I of course had a melt down in the car how were we going to eat the next few days. I guess I could have had Dave do some shopping but thought no problem after work I could get it all done. Would have done it earlier but we didn’t have the money till that morning. Meg suggested Wal-Mart all the way up in Geneseo. Another call home to have someone call Wal-Mart to find out how late they were open while heading to the dollar store to do speed Christmas shopping.
Done at the dollar store in a half an hour and heading up to Wal-Mart which was open till 8 pm. I can’t remember ever shopping that fast but was able to get at least the basics to get us through till Sat. Didn’t get the usual food you would think for Christmas dinner I couldn’t justify spending a weeks worth of grocery money on one meal so we got something once again unique for the feast, the fixings for pizza and wings as suggested by Sara. We arrived home at 9pm pooped and hungry after a very long day.
I proceeded to have another melt down because basically I didn’t have anything to put under the tree for the kids. They were okay with it but for some reason I couldn’t let go of it and the feeling that once again I am a failure as a parent. It didn’t help either that stuffing the stockings later I found Henrys stocking and realized first Christmas without him and that Christmas day would have been his 12th birthday. Not that I don’t already have enough trouble this time of year. So I put in my DVD of it’s a wonderful life and sat and watched it and cried and finally was tired enough to go to bed at 4am.
I actually got to sleep in Christmas morning because Ian was kind enough to go out and do the horses in the morning. We did presents around 11am which was pretty unique and the mood soon turned to side splitting laughter. It started with Sara’s unique gift to her dad. She didn’t want to give him another tie or mug and she was thinking back to when she dissected the woodchuck on the ping pong table with a steak knife and an idea was born. She made a stuffed animal woodchuck that opened up and showed the innards. It was amazing and imaginative beyond belief and made everybody roll on the floor with laughter. Next was the boys gifts from Megan she gave Sean a whoopee cushion and Ian a slime that does pretty much the same thing so they were having farting wars with their respective noise makers. Its amazing that farting noises still cause such laughter even when the boys are grown.
Megan and I then took a ride up the hill to see Annie and visit for Christmas. She looks fantastic and her BFF Kylie got grooming tools and a new halter and lead rope for her and was happy as could be. We stopped at the kwik fill to pick up a few things for dinner and headed back down the hill.
Then the power went out. All I could think of was those poor people that had company over and dinner in the oven. We took a nap and by the time the power came back on we were ready to make pizza and wings.
The 24th and 25th could be described as a roller coaster of emotions and definitely unique. It will be one that we talk about later on as a do you remember the Christmas of 2009. I ended up spending the next 2 days in bed with the worst headache I have had in a while. Now if I can make it through new years I will be hopefully set for another year.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
And a Snappy New Year
Monday, December 28, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
The most F@#$ing wonderful time of the year, yeah right.
Henry's birthday is coming up shortly he wasa Christmas baby. This time of year is tough
and it just got tougher.
I Still miss him a lot and still turn around and
expect him to be standing there or come out of
the bathroom expecting to trip over him.
I was going through pictures to post on face book
(my new addiction) and found this picture of
Henry as a puppy. He was such a little ball of
fur and looked like a bear cub.
I finally force myself to pull out the decorations last night.
I think it wasn't for Megan I probably would have passed this
year. The kids are older and I no longer have that overwhelming
urge to make it special. I know I should but it gets harder and harder.
Megan asked me if I liked Christmas and I said I do like especially the
music and spending time with family.
It is going to be another love Christmas I explained to her and the
others and they are OK with that but I still can't help feeling like
a failure as a parent and provider especially this time of year.
Too many monetary things on the plate right now with things that
are getting neglected that really need to be addressed and add
the "joy" of Christmas to it and bam.
I hate feeling this way I want to enjoy this time of year but
after so many years I am beginning to think that is an impossible
dream. So I will try and continue to make positive memories for
the kids like last nights movie, chicken wings and tree decorating with
Megan and muddle through.
Off to finish decorating and watching the rest of the movies
we rented.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel love!
TTFN
Friday, December 04, 2009
I just went back and read what I last posted and can’t believe it has been over 2 months since I last wrote an entry. I have been trying not to really think and going forward one step at a time just to survive and not break into a million pieces. Plus gee its that time of year again that I still think I could make a killing with a business that puts people in drug induced coma’s till January 1st.
Of course with 4 kids and hubby and animals there is definitely never a dull moment. Sean survived football season with only two injuries that put him on the sideline for a while. Sara and Meg both were on the Varsity Girls Swim Team which made going to games and swim meets easier at least. Sara had a tough season badly spraining her thumb in gym halfway through and then swimming in counties and sectionals suffering from the H1N1 virus and a sinus infection. But both girls made it to sectionals and the team won sectionals for the first time beating their rivals Livonia.
The past few months have been one flu or another past among the 6 of us. Sean was finally feeling better after about a month and a half of flu and ear infections when he started his swim season and all was good for a few days till the evil gym class struck again. He just went for his 3 recheck for the concussion he got playing speed ball in gym and is out yet another week from practice. And Megan has been home this whole week with the stomach flu. Calgon take me away pleeeeeeeeease.
The only thing that seems to make me feel good these days is my job. It continues to make me feel human, an individual and worthwhile. Oh that and helping with the swim meets running the timing system oh the simple things lol.
So as we muddle through the holiday season and be thankful for our relatively good health and family that loves me and work really hard not to get sucked into that black hole.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
P.S The court case was finally settled for Ian and Sara it only took 7 months grrrrr. So his record is clean as long as he stays out of trouble for the next year and beyond.
Of course with 4 kids and hubby and animals there is definitely never a dull moment. Sean survived football season with only two injuries that put him on the sideline for a while. Sara and Meg both were on the Varsity Girls Swim Team which made going to games and swim meets easier at least. Sara had a tough season badly spraining her thumb in gym halfway through and then swimming in counties and sectionals suffering from the H1N1 virus and a sinus infection. But both girls made it to sectionals and the team won sectionals for the first time beating their rivals Livonia.
The past few months have been one flu or another past among the 6 of us. Sean was finally feeling better after about a month and a half of flu and ear infections when he started his swim season and all was good for a few days till the evil gym class struck again. He just went for his 3 recheck for the concussion he got playing speed ball in gym and is out yet another week from practice. And Megan has been home this whole week with the stomach flu. Calgon take me away pleeeeeeeeease.
The only thing that seems to make me feel good these days is my job. It continues to make me feel human, an individual and worthwhile. Oh that and helping with the swim meets running the timing system oh the simple things lol.
So as we muddle through the holiday season and be thankful for our relatively good health and family that loves me and work really hard not to get sucked into that black hole.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
P.S The court case was finally settled for Ian and Sara it only took 7 months grrrrr. So his record is clean as long as he stays out of trouble for the next year and beyond.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Henry
Its taken over a month but I think I am finally able to say goodbye to Henry. The mere saying of his name doesn’t send me into fits of sobs and tears anymore though it does leave a lump in my throat still. There are still moments like when I found his medal from dog obedience class in the junk draw which sent me to the floor in the fetal position crying uncontrollably. How can an animal have such an effect as this on a person? If you don’t know then you didn’t meet Henry.
He was a 5 pound ball of fluff who looked like a little bear cub when I brought him home and he grew in to a massive 90 pound beast with very human eyes and a permanent pout. He was big by Australian Shepard standards and handsome as could be. He was my shadow for over 11 years. I still turn around and expect him to be there not sure how long it will take for that to go away. I never have felt this much love and this much of a connection with anything in my whole life as I did with Henry. He just knew me and me him without effort without baggage.
He was very protective of his family but most especially of me. He was a good big brother to Tilly and put up with her antics and stealing his Frisbee plus he tolerated the cats.
Sean and Henry had a love hate relationship from the beginning. Sean wasn’t very nice to Henry when he was a puppy so when ever there was yelling or fighting he would try to knock Sean down by nudging him in the not so good place. All I had to do was count to 3 and Henry knew to chase Sean it became a game that Henry enjoyed to the glee of all in the room, not so sure Sean liked it.
Henry was obsessed with Frisbees and would destroy a regular one in 3 seconds flat. Then I found plastic bucket lids and the love affair began. He would chase them for hours if you would throw them and if not he would bark and “herd” them around the back yard. We had a million of them in every room and every corner of the back yard.
He went down hill fast. One day we took him in concerned because he had trouble walking to find out arthritis in his back was bad and he had torn his ACL in his back knee. We tried the steroid shots that seemed to at least make the pain not as bad and we were on his 6th shot and going to spread them out when he got sick and within 2 days he was gone. He died at home another thing he did for me. I didn’t have to take him and make that decision I so hate toward the end of a beloved pets life. He died with his head in my lap in the living room he spent millions of hours in at 3:48 am on August 12, 2009.
There is a big hole in my heart that is still very raw and painful. I have a hard time spending to much time at home especially alone. I will miss him. Its very quiet too he would bark when the kids messed or when they fight.
We lost 2 pets within 2 weeks of each other raising the question of why do we do it, why do we get more. Sara put it eloquently, “even though it hurts we at least know we gave them a great life full of love that they might now have gotten otherwise.” Will I do it again, right now no way not in the near or distant future. Instead I will enjoy the ones left behind.
Farewell Henry the eighth I am Henry the eighth I am I am.
He was a 5 pound ball of fluff who looked like a little bear cub when I brought him home and he grew in to a massive 90 pound beast with very human eyes and a permanent pout. He was big by Australian Shepard standards and handsome as could be. He was my shadow for over 11 years. I still turn around and expect him to be there not sure how long it will take for that to go away. I never have felt this much love and this much of a connection with anything in my whole life as I did with Henry. He just knew me and me him without effort without baggage.
He was very protective of his family but most especially of me. He was a good big brother to Tilly and put up with her antics and stealing his Frisbee plus he tolerated the cats.
Sean and Henry had a love hate relationship from the beginning. Sean wasn’t very nice to Henry when he was a puppy so when ever there was yelling or fighting he would try to knock Sean down by nudging him in the not so good place. All I had to do was count to 3 and Henry knew to chase Sean it became a game that Henry enjoyed to the glee of all in the room, not so sure Sean liked it.
Henry was obsessed with Frisbees and would destroy a regular one in 3 seconds flat. Then I found plastic bucket lids and the love affair began. He would chase them for hours if you would throw them and if not he would bark and “herd” them around the back yard. We had a million of them in every room and every corner of the back yard.
He went down hill fast. One day we took him in concerned because he had trouble walking to find out arthritis in his back was bad and he had torn his ACL in his back knee. We tried the steroid shots that seemed to at least make the pain not as bad and we were on his 6th shot and going to spread them out when he got sick and within 2 days he was gone. He died at home another thing he did for me. I didn’t have to take him and make that decision I so hate toward the end of a beloved pets life. He died with his head in my lap in the living room he spent millions of hours in at 3:48 am on August 12, 2009.
There is a big hole in my heart that is still very raw and painful. I have a hard time spending to much time at home especially alone. I will miss him. Its very quiet too he would bark when the kids messed or when they fight.
We lost 2 pets within 2 weeks of each other raising the question of why do we do it, why do we get more. Sara put it eloquently, “even though it hurts we at least know we gave them a great life full of love that they might now have gotten otherwise.” Will I do it again, right now no way not in the near or distant future. Instead I will enjoy the ones left behind.
Farewell Henry the eighth I am Henry the eighth I am I am.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Goodbye June Bug We Love you!!!!
I don’t recommend driving 70 miles and hour on the expressway and talking to the vet as he is telling you that there isn’t anymore that they can do for your daughters cat and it would be best to put him down.
I was on my way to pick the girls up from swim camp on the phone with my hubby fighting with him about a light that choose to appear on my dashboard 45 mins into my trip. The back story being we never got a book with the new car and of course googling isn’t one of my husbands strong suits. He finds the book but you have to pay 2.50 to download it so that meant figuring out paypal etc. so as we are finding out what is wrong with the car the other phone rings and it the vet.
I hang up with Dave and call the vet back and when he said do you have a few minutes to talk I knew it wasn’t good. It wasn’t the amputation that was the problem that would heal ok it was the back foot they took the 3 toes off and pieced back together. It died. End of trying. Sobbing I asked if they could keep him comfortable until I picked up Sara so she could say good bye and they went out of there way to make it convenient for us to do so.
The hardest thing I have had to do in a long time happened next. I wanted the girls to enjoy the last few hours of camp and the swim meet award ceremony so I had to engage all of my acting skill to keep it together till we got home. It was the longest 7 hours of my life. Thank goodness she didn’t ask how he was!
We went up at 8 this morning to say our goodbyes and bring him home to be buried next to Chelsea in the pet garden. He was a fighter and a lover and we only had him a short time but we will miss him lots.
Of course there were some who scoffed and said why did we expend money we didn’t have to try and make it work but when it’s a part of your family and there is even the smallest chance he could have survived and lived a good life we had to try.
Sara seemed to take it in stride. She is very sad but she understands that we get animals because we want to give them the best lives we can for as long as we can no matter how much it hurts when we have to say goodbye. She continues to amaze me on a daily basis.
Stay safe, Stay cool, Feel loved.
TTFN
I was on my way to pick the girls up from swim camp on the phone with my hubby fighting with him about a light that choose to appear on my dashboard 45 mins into my trip. The back story being we never got a book with the new car and of course googling isn’t one of my husbands strong suits. He finds the book but you have to pay 2.50 to download it so that meant figuring out paypal etc. so as we are finding out what is wrong with the car the other phone rings and it the vet.
I hang up with Dave and call the vet back and when he said do you have a few minutes to talk I knew it wasn’t good. It wasn’t the amputation that was the problem that would heal ok it was the back foot they took the 3 toes off and pieced back together. It died. End of trying. Sobbing I asked if they could keep him comfortable until I picked up Sara so she could say good bye and they went out of there way to make it convenient for us to do so.
The hardest thing I have had to do in a long time happened next. I wanted the girls to enjoy the last few hours of camp and the swim meet award ceremony so I had to engage all of my acting skill to keep it together till we got home. It was the longest 7 hours of my life. Thank goodness she didn’t ask how he was!
We went up at 8 this morning to say our goodbyes and bring him home to be buried next to Chelsea in the pet garden. He was a fighter and a lover and we only had him a short time but we will miss him lots.
Of course there were some who scoffed and said why did we expend money we didn’t have to try and make it work but when it’s a part of your family and there is even the smallest chance he could have survived and lived a good life we had to try.
Sara seemed to take it in stride. She is very sad but she understands that we get animals because we want to give them the best lives we can for as long as we can no matter how much it hurts when we have to say goodbye. She continues to amaze me on a daily basis.
Stay safe, Stay cool, Feel loved.
TTFN
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Family (two legged ones) Update.
Sara and Meg left for swim camp for a whole week on Sunday and I was supposed to enjoy the peace and quiet while they were gone. Thanks to the cat that isn’t happening.
For the most part they seem to be enjoying camp. Of course I got a call Tuesday from the college nurse saying don’t panic but Megan fell off her bunk and hurt her foot. My response was she is the youngest of 4 so unless your going to tell me she is dead not much will phase me. She had a scrape on the top of her foot and a bruise on her shin from screwing around on the ladder of her bunk. 3 ½ hours away and she is making poor choices. But it all worked out and she will be fine and is swimming. They both seemed to make some new friends and I go pick them up on Saturday if I don’t have to take the cat to the vet. Then Dave will have to go get them or take the cat to the vet.
Sean attended a Football camp up in Rochester last week and loved it. He even won an award for his group which made him smile ear to ear. He also got to hang with his cousin Dylan and they had a blast catching up and getting reacquainted. He has been home and attending his summer work outs for football every afternoon and swimming in the morning for swim club. But he some how did something to his knee last night at practice and is limping and bruised. Can you imagine how I reacted when he called me to ask me to come get him because he had screwed up his knee.
Ian is not returning to Fredonia. He failed to confirm his dorm room and was put on a waiting list so we said there is no way in hell you’re living off campus so I guess you aren’t going back. But he needs to be in school or he gets booted off our insurance so he transferred his stuff to the local college down the road GCC and is taking a 12 credit course load to stay a full time student and get some of his stuff out of the way. And he is looking for a job. He has an interview on Monday at TOPS so hopefully he will be working soon and have a purpose in life. He also has to complete his 20 hours of community service here in Dansville within a month’s time so he will be busy for the next few weeks at least. I am sad he isn’t returning to Fredonia but I am thrilled to have him close and safeish.
The hubby continues to make us all look bad by taking care of himself and exercising and eating well. His blood pressure has pretty much come down to a point where they may take him off the meds he has been on for years.
Where his is going down mine has been steady high for the past few months. I finally figured I better address it before I am the next casualty in the house. The stress is wearing me thinner than I have been worn in a long time and I am not sure how much longer I can stay the strong one. I laughingly say I would have a nervous break down I just don’t have the time or energy.
I am off to do something good for myself for the second time today and go swimming even though I just want to crawl into bed and sleep.
Stay safe, Stay Cool, Feel Loved.
TTFN
For the most part they seem to be enjoying camp. Of course I got a call Tuesday from the college nurse saying don’t panic but Megan fell off her bunk and hurt her foot. My response was she is the youngest of 4 so unless your going to tell me she is dead not much will phase me. She had a scrape on the top of her foot and a bruise on her shin from screwing around on the ladder of her bunk. 3 ½ hours away and she is making poor choices. But it all worked out and she will be fine and is swimming. They both seemed to make some new friends and I go pick them up on Saturday if I don’t have to take the cat to the vet. Then Dave will have to go get them or take the cat to the vet.
Sean attended a Football camp up in Rochester last week and loved it. He even won an award for his group which made him smile ear to ear. He also got to hang with his cousin Dylan and they had a blast catching up and getting reacquainted. He has been home and attending his summer work outs for football every afternoon and swimming in the morning for swim club. But he some how did something to his knee last night at practice and is limping and bruised. Can you imagine how I reacted when he called me to ask me to come get him because he had screwed up his knee.
Ian is not returning to Fredonia. He failed to confirm his dorm room and was put on a waiting list so we said there is no way in hell you’re living off campus so I guess you aren’t going back. But he needs to be in school or he gets booted off our insurance so he transferred his stuff to the local college down the road GCC and is taking a 12 credit course load to stay a full time student and get some of his stuff out of the way. And he is looking for a job. He has an interview on Monday at TOPS so hopefully he will be working soon and have a purpose in life. He also has to complete his 20 hours of community service here in Dansville within a month’s time so he will be busy for the next few weeks at least. I am sad he isn’t returning to Fredonia but I am thrilled to have him close and safeish.
The hubby continues to make us all look bad by taking care of himself and exercising and eating well. His blood pressure has pretty much come down to a point where they may take him off the meds he has been on for years.
Where his is going down mine has been steady high for the past few months. I finally figured I better address it before I am the next casualty in the house. The stress is wearing me thinner than I have been worn in a long time and I am not sure how much longer I can stay the strong one. I laughingly say I would have a nervous break down I just don’t have the time or energy.
I am off to do something good for myself for the second time today and go swimming even though I just want to crawl into bed and sleep.
Stay safe, Stay Cool, Feel Loved.
TTFN
Pet update
So here we are over 2 weeks since I last wrote and thing haven’t let up. OMG.
Henry is on his 4th steroid shot and seems to have hit a plateau. He still has trouble with his back leg but can get around “ok”. He is also showing interest in chewing on Frisbees and bones instead of just laying there looking forlorn. In comes Junior.
A week ago last Thursday there was a horrible howling coming from the upstairs hallway at around 11:30 at night. It was Junior with his front leg hanging from a small piece of muscle. Panic ensued among the children, as I am trying to administer first aid to the cat, calm the kids, call the vet and run for the car to make the trip up over the hill to the vets. Which is usually a 20 min drive done in 10. All the while trying not to think about what I am looking at staying focus and trying to stay calm myself. Long story short the cat not only had his front leg amputated on Friday but three of his toes on his back foot and came home on Saturday. Things seemed to be progressing well he was starting to eat and use the pan and drink on his own then the smell set in. Nobody told me about the dead skin scenario that would most likely happen till I took him back yesterday because of the smell and was informed that most of the area around the incision would probably fall off. Great. Shoot me now.
Guess when it decides to start falling off? When I am at work today and my husband is the one to discover it and calls me freaked out and ranting about why we didn’t just put the cat to sleep. Its normal, its gross, deal with it and I will be home in 30 minutes. I don’t know why we didn’t have him put to sleep; the thought didn’t even cross my mind when we were standing in the vet office at midnight. The vet said he was strong and young and cats can do well on three legs and Sara already had lost a cat that was only about 2 years old and I wanted to save this one for her. Wrong or right I wanted to try at least to save her more upset if possible.
Good thing I finally decided to splurge and go to the doctor about my blood pressure and get meds because I’m thinking the top of my head is going to blow off any time now.
So as we sink deeper into financial hell and life keeps trying its best to cut me off at the knees I will keep jumping up I guess till I can’t anymore.
Stay safe, Stay cool, Feel loved.
TTFN
Henry is on his 4th steroid shot and seems to have hit a plateau. He still has trouble with his back leg but can get around “ok”. He is also showing interest in chewing on Frisbees and bones instead of just laying there looking forlorn. In comes Junior.
A week ago last Thursday there was a horrible howling coming from the upstairs hallway at around 11:30 at night. It was Junior with his front leg hanging from a small piece of muscle. Panic ensued among the children, as I am trying to administer first aid to the cat, calm the kids, call the vet and run for the car to make the trip up over the hill to the vets. Which is usually a 20 min drive done in 10. All the while trying not to think about what I am looking at staying focus and trying to stay calm myself. Long story short the cat not only had his front leg amputated on Friday but three of his toes on his back foot and came home on Saturday. Things seemed to be progressing well he was starting to eat and use the pan and drink on his own then the smell set in. Nobody told me about the dead skin scenario that would most likely happen till I took him back yesterday because of the smell and was informed that most of the area around the incision would probably fall off. Great. Shoot me now.
Guess when it decides to start falling off? When I am at work today and my husband is the one to discover it and calls me freaked out and ranting about why we didn’t just put the cat to sleep. Its normal, its gross, deal with it and I will be home in 30 minutes. I don’t know why we didn’t have him put to sleep; the thought didn’t even cross my mind when we were standing in the vet office at midnight. The vet said he was strong and young and cats can do well on three legs and Sara already had lost a cat that was only about 2 years old and I wanted to save this one for her. Wrong or right I wanted to try at least to save her more upset if possible.
Good thing I finally decided to splurge and go to the doctor about my blood pressure and get meds because I’m thinking the top of my head is going to blow off any time now.
So as we sink deeper into financial hell and life keeps trying its best to cut me off at the knees I will keep jumping up I guess till I can’t anymore.
Stay safe, Stay cool, Feel loved.
TTFN
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Its amazing how attached we become to the furry creatures of the world. I have always had a soft spot for most any type of animal often bring home a stray kitten or puppy when I was younger. It often worked out that we could convince my parents to let us keep it or we always found good homes for them all.
Its hard these days I am still surrounded by the animals I love and like kids they have there good days and bad days but all in all you love them almost as much as your own children. I have had to make some tough decisions lately and have had many sleepless nights worrying and wondering how I am going to take care of them now with the way our finances and the economy are. I have begun looking to find homes for a few of my hoofed creatures even though I know it will be very painful to part with them I just can’t do it anymore. They need medical care and attention that I can’t afford or seem to be able to find the time for.
Then there is Henry. How do I describe my handsome boy? From the moment I saw him when he was 5 weeks old and only 5 pounds we fell in love. I am pretty sure I have never had as strong a bond with any animal in my life as I have with Henry.
That’s why the last few weeks have been a difficult test. Henry is my shadow. When I am home I can never hide because the kids know exactly where I am if they see where Henry has placed himself. Even now with his one back leg not working he still pulls himself up and follows me from room to room just so he can lay at my feet or as close to me as possible. He is doing much better than he was a little over a week ago but still no sign of improvement in his back leg. Today was steroid shot #2 and we got more of the wonder pain drug that has made it all bearable and taken away the pain that made him cry and whine. So we are playing the waiting game and I keep telling myself that I have to keep my eyes open and remember quality over quantity and not be blinded by the overwhelming love I feel for this animal.
So I invested in the big bottle of pain meds instead of buying the 5 day supply one trying to be optimistic and take it one day at a time and hope this all works and he will be around for a while longer.
Stay safe, stay cool, feel loved.
TTFN
Its hard these days I am still surrounded by the animals I love and like kids they have there good days and bad days but all in all you love them almost as much as your own children. I have had to make some tough decisions lately and have had many sleepless nights worrying and wondering how I am going to take care of them now with the way our finances and the economy are. I have begun looking to find homes for a few of my hoofed creatures even though I know it will be very painful to part with them I just can’t do it anymore. They need medical care and attention that I can’t afford or seem to be able to find the time for.
Then there is Henry. How do I describe my handsome boy? From the moment I saw him when he was 5 weeks old and only 5 pounds we fell in love. I am pretty sure I have never had as strong a bond with any animal in my life as I have with Henry.
That’s why the last few weeks have been a difficult test. Henry is my shadow. When I am home I can never hide because the kids know exactly where I am if they see where Henry has placed himself. Even now with his one back leg not working he still pulls himself up and follows me from room to room just so he can lay at my feet or as close to me as possible. He is doing much better than he was a little over a week ago but still no sign of improvement in his back leg. Today was steroid shot #2 and we got more of the wonder pain drug that has made it all bearable and taken away the pain that made him cry and whine. So we are playing the waiting game and I keep telling myself that I have to keep my eyes open and remember quality over quantity and not be blinded by the overwhelming love I feel for this animal.
So I invested in the big bottle of pain meds instead of buying the 5 day supply one trying to be optimistic and take it one day at a time and hope this all works and he will be around for a while longer.
Stay safe, stay cool, feel loved.
TTFN
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Summer is here!!!!!
Wow it’s amazing how much crap can happen in just a few weeks since the last time I wrote in here.
I guess I can start with updates on the Ian front. We went to Fredonia on the 17th and sat for 2 and ½ hours waiting for his turn. The judge I have to admit was interesting to watch and listen to. He was firm yet fair the first case up was an elderly couple who had forgotten to put their handicap sign up when they parked at the hospital. He told them never let it happen again and let them leave. He had a saying from the wizard of oz he liked quoting to especially the dumb ass college students that came before him that day, “ I believe you were a victim of unorganized thinking”. Of the 6 college age campus related incidents Ian was a boy scout compared to the other 5. But still they did deal and changed his charge of possession of stolen property ( a freaking traffic cone that he never really had possession of) to disorderly conduct and he waived the 100 fine and gave him 20 hours of community service to be served when he gets back to Fred in the fall. Of course he didn’t get off free the court fee is 125 and has to be paid by July 17th or they aren’t happy. The second court date was the 22nd and we show up only to find out they want to postpone it again till the end of July. They have a high profile case going on and want to settle that before they deal with Ian. So unfortunately I didn’t get to sigh a breath of relief and have to keep holding my breath for another month. Got to love politicians NOT. I told the kids that I never want to have to be in a court room again unless I am going for the taping of Judge Judy.
Summer officially started for all my kids yesterday at noon. The older ones have really been out since June 10th but Meg still had half days this week up to yesterday. It was actually nice not having to set my alarm this morning and have to get up cranky teenagers for school. I will enjoy it for about a week until swim club starts and they have to be there at 7:30 in the morning 5 days a week. I am hoping that the coach is understanding and can wait for some of the money for swim club Henrys emergency this past week and a half has put a strain on the already strained budget.
Henry had a problem a week and a half ago and we took him to the vet fearing the worst. The doc sent us home with some meds that seemed to work pretty well but by the following Sunday he couldn’t use his back leg at all and was in obvious pain. Took him back yesterday for x-rays because the vet didn’t think he had broke or dislocated his hip and needed to do x-rays to get a better picture of what is going on. First I had to leave him there all day and finally got my answer at 5pm. He tore his ACL in his back knee and that wasn’t the worst of it his spine was almost completely racked with arthritis. He explained every thing to me and said they could try treating it with anabolic steroids and pain med. I was second guess myself. I have always been an advocate of quality as opposed to quantity. But he said that the treatment was only 16 dollars for a shot and we could try it for a few weeks and see how it goes and could always stop anytime. He gave him a 25% chance of improvement. Well I figured we were already 450 in the hole what was another 36 dollars. I just don’t want to make the major put to sleep decision and then second guess myself that maybe just maybe if we had tried. So as long as he seems comfortable we will keep trying.
A Good friend of mine was, hopefully she and her sister are the way home as I am typing this, in an unsafe place for way to long trying to help her sister who is very ill. I live in a small town which can be backwards but Savannah sounds like it’s lost in time. She was not welcomed due to the fact that she is a lesbian and was treated very unjustly and just downright meanly. I can’t even imagine the fear involved for her all I know is the fear I felt after hearing about some of the things that happened. I then started thinking of all the people who actually live there especially young teens and young adults who may be homosexual and the fear and torment they must have to put up with everyday of their lives. What is wrong with people?
Sean has football camp for 3 days after the 4th and is going to hang with his aunt and cousin because the only camp we could afford was not an over night and up in Rochester. Fortunately his cousin is going to the same camp. It will be nice for them to reconnect we have been so disjointed from my side of the family that we lost touch. Megan and Sara then will be gone for a whole week at swim camp. It will be interesting to see how well i deal with them being gone and so far away it was hard leaving Sara last year at the same camp but I am hoping that both of them will be easier because they will have each other. Ian is in limbo. He may or may not be heading to Boston next week. If he doesn't we will have to get creative and find him something to occupy him. He goes today to the cardiologist to see if they can help get his blood pressure under control. I need to make my appt for the same thing.
So I am hoping for a quiet peaceful summer with no major issues and that they are all getting out of the way at the beginning. I know I am funny and living in my own reality but I can hope can’t I.
Stay safe, stay cool, feel loved.
TTFN
I guess I can start with updates on the Ian front. We went to Fredonia on the 17th and sat for 2 and ½ hours waiting for his turn. The judge I have to admit was interesting to watch and listen to. He was firm yet fair the first case up was an elderly couple who had forgotten to put their handicap sign up when they parked at the hospital. He told them never let it happen again and let them leave. He had a saying from the wizard of oz he liked quoting to especially the dumb ass college students that came before him that day, “ I believe you were a victim of unorganized thinking”. Of the 6 college age campus related incidents Ian was a boy scout compared to the other 5. But still they did deal and changed his charge of possession of stolen property ( a freaking traffic cone that he never really had possession of) to disorderly conduct and he waived the 100 fine and gave him 20 hours of community service to be served when he gets back to Fred in the fall. Of course he didn’t get off free the court fee is 125 and has to be paid by July 17th or they aren’t happy. The second court date was the 22nd and we show up only to find out they want to postpone it again till the end of July. They have a high profile case going on and want to settle that before they deal with Ian. So unfortunately I didn’t get to sigh a breath of relief and have to keep holding my breath for another month. Got to love politicians NOT. I told the kids that I never want to have to be in a court room again unless I am going for the taping of Judge Judy.
Summer officially started for all my kids yesterday at noon. The older ones have really been out since June 10th but Meg still had half days this week up to yesterday. It was actually nice not having to set my alarm this morning and have to get up cranky teenagers for school. I will enjoy it for about a week until swim club starts and they have to be there at 7:30 in the morning 5 days a week. I am hoping that the coach is understanding and can wait for some of the money for swim club Henrys emergency this past week and a half has put a strain on the already strained budget.
Henry had a problem a week and a half ago and we took him to the vet fearing the worst. The doc sent us home with some meds that seemed to work pretty well but by the following Sunday he couldn’t use his back leg at all and was in obvious pain. Took him back yesterday for x-rays because the vet didn’t think he had broke or dislocated his hip and needed to do x-rays to get a better picture of what is going on. First I had to leave him there all day and finally got my answer at 5pm. He tore his ACL in his back knee and that wasn’t the worst of it his spine was almost completely racked with arthritis. He explained every thing to me and said they could try treating it with anabolic steroids and pain med. I was second guess myself. I have always been an advocate of quality as opposed to quantity. But he said that the treatment was only 16 dollars for a shot and we could try it for a few weeks and see how it goes and could always stop anytime. He gave him a 25% chance of improvement. Well I figured we were already 450 in the hole what was another 36 dollars. I just don’t want to make the major put to sleep decision and then second guess myself that maybe just maybe if we had tried. So as long as he seems comfortable we will keep trying.
A Good friend of mine was, hopefully she and her sister are the way home as I am typing this, in an unsafe place for way to long trying to help her sister who is very ill. I live in a small town which can be backwards but Savannah sounds like it’s lost in time. She was not welcomed due to the fact that she is a lesbian and was treated very unjustly and just downright meanly. I can’t even imagine the fear involved for her all I know is the fear I felt after hearing about some of the things that happened. I then started thinking of all the people who actually live there especially young teens and young adults who may be homosexual and the fear and torment they must have to put up with everyday of their lives. What is wrong with people?
Sean has football camp for 3 days after the 4th and is going to hang with his aunt and cousin because the only camp we could afford was not an over night and up in Rochester. Fortunately his cousin is going to the same camp. It will be nice for them to reconnect we have been so disjointed from my side of the family that we lost touch. Megan and Sara then will be gone for a whole week at swim camp. It will be interesting to see how well i deal with them being gone and so far away it was hard leaving Sara last year at the same camp but I am hoping that both of them will be easier because they will have each other. Ian is in limbo. He may or may not be heading to Boston next week. If he doesn't we will have to get creative and find him something to occupy him. He goes today to the cardiologist to see if they can help get his blood pressure under control. I need to make my appt for the same thing.
So I am hoping for a quiet peaceful summer with no major issues and that they are all getting out of the way at the beginning. I know I am funny and living in my own reality but I can hope can’t I.
Stay safe, stay cool, feel loved.
TTFN
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Catch Up!!!!!!!!
I haven’t been here in a while. I spend most of my time now on facebook. Short blurbs are easier to write than longer ones here but I have been using this as a sort of diary and need to start again.
The college boy is home has been for a few weeks. He is enjoying some down time with friends before heading off to Maine for the better part of the summer. We go to talk to the lawyer tomorrow and figure out where we stand on the first arrest then off to Fredonia on the 17th to hopefully clear up the other one. By June 22 I am hoping the dark cloud will be cleared and there will be one less nightmare in my life.
Dave has been walking and exercising for the past few months and has lost a lot of weight and his blood pressure is the lowest, sometimes even to low, it has been in years. So I finally started walking last week. Its been an ever other day thing but I am working my way up plus I threw in a long ride the other night on jenny which is exercise too just ask my groin muscles. My blood pressure has been bad and I have gained all the weigh back that I had lost 2 years ago before my surgeries. So hopefully I can get my groove back and gain some energy and zest for life back that has been submerged for way to long now.
Sara has been busy with track, her art shows, and school. It is almost the end of the year and she is looking for a job for the summer but the choices around here are slim to none. She did finally pass her road test and is now a licensed driver which will help broaden her range for looking for a job. She had her junior prom and she looked beyond gorgeous. She and Jake had fun and the night was nice for everybody.
Sean has had some academic short falls this half of the year. He was suspended from track for failing 2 classes and just never went back. He of course continues to work out for Football after school. I tried to explain to him that he won’t be able to play football if his grades don’t improve but he said they will. He needs to take the work ethic he has during football and expand it into the rest of the school year. We shall see. He has gone through a few growing “rough patches” this spring to and we hope the mistakes made leave lasting lessons learn.
The college boy is home has been for a few weeks. He is enjoying some down time with friends before heading off to Maine for the better part of the summer. We go to talk to the lawyer tomorrow and figure out where we stand on the first arrest then off to Fredonia on the 17th to hopefully clear up the other one. By June 22 I am hoping the dark cloud will be cleared and there will be one less nightmare in my life.
Dave has been walking and exercising for the past few months and has lost a lot of weight and his blood pressure is the lowest, sometimes even to low, it has been in years. So I finally started walking last week. Its been an ever other day thing but I am working my way up plus I threw in a long ride the other night on jenny which is exercise too just ask my groin muscles. My blood pressure has been bad and I have gained all the weigh back that I had lost 2 years ago before my surgeries. So hopefully I can get my groove back and gain some energy and zest for life back that has been submerged for way to long now.
Sara has been busy with track, her art shows, and school. It is almost the end of the year and she is looking for a job for the summer but the choices around here are slim to none. She did finally pass her road test and is now a licensed driver which will help broaden her range for looking for a job. She had her junior prom and she looked beyond gorgeous. She and Jake had fun and the night was nice for everybody.
Sean has had some academic short falls this half of the year. He was suspended from track for failing 2 classes and just never went back. He of course continues to work out for Football after school. I tried to explain to him that he won’t be able to play football if his grades don’t improve but he said they will. He needs to take the work ethic he has during football and expand it into the rest of the school year. We shall see. He has gone through a few growing “rough patches” this spring to and we hope the mistakes made leave lasting lessons learn.
Miss Megan is now officially a teenager. I have 4 now. She did do track also this spring trying her hand shotput and relays and the 100 meter dash. She didn’t like it as much as swimming or football but she got to hang with some of her friends and stay in shape. She is attending swim camp with her big sister this year because she wants to be able to test up for varsity next year and swim with her sister in her senior year. She went to her semi formal last night and she looked stunning. She had her own personal hair and makeup artists to assist her in getting ready and the transformation was amazing. When I dropped her off it was funny to hear the comments from her friends about her being in a dress and wearing makeup. And I think she has a special someone now from the sounds of it they danced all night.
Well my yard work is calling. I finally have dug in so to speak, to sprucing up the yard this year and it is looking pretty awesome but of course there is always more to do.
TTFN Stay safe, Stay warm, Feel loved.
Monday, April 13, 2009
ramblings of an old tired mother
Tired so tired and so much to be done. Got the horses feet trimmed finally today and the sun is shining and I want to go for a ride but I'm tired so tired. The house is a mess and the laundry is piling up but I'm tired so tired. The law mower needs fixing and there is a crap load of things to be done outside that i can't afford to do and Im tired so tired. Would kill for a good nights sleep but even that and a nap and I'm tired so tired. Gee maybe I'm just Old!
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
ttfn
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
ttfn
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
I really want to write good stuff here but am lacking in that department lately. Every day is a struggle to get up in the morning and face the day with any sort of positive aura. Sleep has been an absent friend only adding to the lack.
My job is now a haven to give me the positive strokes I lack in other parts of my life. I look forward to going and just feeling like I am important and needed and appreciated. Just wish my hubby could have the same feeling when he goes to work because he is amazing at what he does and puts up with a lot of crap.
I am still worried and concerned about the college boy and his health issues. He did seek help at the counseling office and liked the lady he met with but its all reliant on him realizing he is abusing himself and headed down a road that could ultimately cause irreparable harm. The feeling of total and complete lack of control to help and protect him is beyond description. I wish I had the ability to turn it over as they say but we know how good at that I am.
A new season of sports has begun on the home front with track for all three as the sport of choice. Continuing on the path of everyday activities to keep us sane and busy. While doing all we can to improve the quality of the life we are living and helping the ones we love to do the same.
We move forward with life as it is and continue to fight the demons that haunt us and hope some day soon we can say enough is enough go away. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger...........okay strong enough already.
stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Kids Gotta Love um
I am wondering if maybe I change the name of my blog that I might not be living it so often? Just a thought, a wishful thought at that but I highly doubt it would make much of a difference.
The only thing that is really going well right now is my job. The hubby and I went for a night out to get away and reconnect because things have been to say the least very tense between us. We try every year at least once around the time we get our taxes back to do this and have my mother in law come down and sit with the kids. This year the mother in law had other things going on so we figured gee middle of the week 3 of the kids have school and the activities attached to that so we figured maybe just maybe the college boy could for go socializing or drinking for just one night and take care of the homestead. Bet you can guess what the answer to that is? NOT!!!!
Our night was cut short at 1:26am when we received the telephone call from Ian about Police officers in the house and he was being taken to Geneseo to be fingerprinted and photographed and a statement taken. So a hasty packing in sued, quick check out of the hotel and a long hour ride to Geneseo to pick up Ian. We finally go home at 4am not well rested and reconnected the way the night was suppose to go but very tired and devastated with a long range mess to face.
We thought the stress level in the house was already near the breaking point but now it is scary and unbearable at times. Not sure how it will all pan out because there are so many factors that could cause difficult consequences for especially Ian’s future. One dumb mistake and poof life just got a hell of a lot harder. He is in a self destruct mode and needs to wake up and start doing the things he needs to do to make it all better now before he finds himself to deep to turn back easily.
We have always tried to share our experiences and our regrets and things we would have done different with the kids and hoped that lessons that we had to learn the hard way would be helpful guides to what not to do. But it seems that it is true what they say they have to make their own mistakes in order to learn and grow and a rare few learn from others mistakes. I just hope that this is a harsh wake up call to both my older children and they do learn from this and change the path they are walking down right now.
So we wake up each morning put our feet on the floor and move forward into our day hoping that the tape and glue holds till the healing and permanent sealing of the wound is complete.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
The only thing that is really going well right now is my job. The hubby and I went for a night out to get away and reconnect because things have been to say the least very tense between us. We try every year at least once around the time we get our taxes back to do this and have my mother in law come down and sit with the kids. This year the mother in law had other things going on so we figured gee middle of the week 3 of the kids have school and the activities attached to that so we figured maybe just maybe the college boy could for go socializing or drinking for just one night and take care of the homestead. Bet you can guess what the answer to that is? NOT!!!!
Our night was cut short at 1:26am when we received the telephone call from Ian about Police officers in the house and he was being taken to Geneseo to be fingerprinted and photographed and a statement taken. So a hasty packing in sued, quick check out of the hotel and a long hour ride to Geneseo to pick up Ian. We finally go home at 4am not well rested and reconnected the way the night was suppose to go but very tired and devastated with a long range mess to face.
We thought the stress level in the house was already near the breaking point but now it is scary and unbearable at times. Not sure how it will all pan out because there are so many factors that could cause difficult consequences for especially Ian’s future. One dumb mistake and poof life just got a hell of a lot harder. He is in a self destruct mode and needs to wake up and start doing the things he needs to do to make it all better now before he finds himself to deep to turn back easily.
We have always tried to share our experiences and our regrets and things we would have done different with the kids and hoped that lessons that we had to learn the hard way would be helpful guides to what not to do. But it seems that it is true what they say they have to make their own mistakes in order to learn and grow and a rare few learn from others mistakes. I just hope that this is a harsh wake up call to both my older children and they do learn from this and change the path they are walking down right now.
So we wake up each morning put our feet on the floor and move forward into our day hoping that the tape and glue holds till the healing and permanent sealing of the wound is complete.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Friday, March 13, 2009
I have finally come to the conclusion that even if there was an instruction manual for raising teens it would always be out of date even if updated daily.
I thought I would be nice and let the kids sleep in this morning and give them a ride to school because the other morning Megan had gotten it in her head that she could sleep in because she had a big math test that day and everybody was doing it. One small problem she didn't mention it to me and so the yelling and screaming etc. occurred and she was late for school. Well this morning I didn't wake her till 7 and she fell back asleep and I woke her at 7:15 and she was yelling at me because she had to ride the bus this morning. Oh my god I can't win. Then I tried to help her get ready and took her racing suit out of her swim bag and put in her practice suit and she flipped about that. Last I knew she was only wearing the racing suit for meets and the other for practice. So I got yelled at twice this morning for trying to be nice. I told her if she was going to change the rules she needs to let me know.
Sean on the other hand is trying to be more helpful and less mean to me since I pass worded his computer and grounded him for the week for his behavior Wednesday morning. I just hope it last.
Sara pulled an all nighter last night to get stuff done for school today. She is sooooo an O'Brien with the last minute crap. But like all O'Briens they seem to do their best when under the gun to finish something too bad the rest of us suffer in the process. Though I have to admit she was not as ugly this morning as per her usual persona.
Well Off to pick up the college boy for his spring break and hopefully to figure out why and how to fix his blood pressure problem before it causes problems.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
I thought I would be nice and let the kids sleep in this morning and give them a ride to school because the other morning Megan had gotten it in her head that she could sleep in because she had a big math test that day and everybody was doing it. One small problem she didn't mention it to me and so the yelling and screaming etc. occurred and she was late for school. Well this morning I didn't wake her till 7 and she fell back asleep and I woke her at 7:15 and she was yelling at me because she had to ride the bus this morning. Oh my god I can't win. Then I tried to help her get ready and took her racing suit out of her swim bag and put in her practice suit and she flipped about that. Last I knew she was only wearing the racing suit for meets and the other for practice. So I got yelled at twice this morning for trying to be nice. I told her if she was going to change the rules she needs to let me know.
Sean on the other hand is trying to be more helpful and less mean to me since I pass worded his computer and grounded him for the week for his behavior Wednesday morning. I just hope it last.
Sara pulled an all nighter last night to get stuff done for school today. She is sooooo an O'Brien with the last minute crap. But like all O'Briens they seem to do their best when under the gun to finish something too bad the rest of us suffer in the process. Though I have to admit she was not as ugly this morning as per her usual persona.
Well Off to pick up the college boy for his spring break and hopefully to figure out why and how to fix his blood pressure problem before it causes problems.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Friday, March 06, 2009
They are racing along and growing up to fast all of the sudden. Sara had her meeting with the superintendent of the schools today and she has the blessing of the district to move forward with her plan to graduate early. Her father went with her for moral support which was great for both of them. I am just sooooo not ready for her to leave for college in the fall but it doesn't matter if I am ready only that she is ready.
Then I have my soon to be 19 year old who acts way to grown up for his age. He is smart and we have taught him well I just hope that the lessons continue to keep him safe. With the alcohol related deaths on the campuses in NYS making the news most every day it just sends chills down my spine. He did some image changes yesterday himself with a hair cut now if I could only convince him to trim the damn beard so he didn't look like the drummer from a heavy metal band we would be all set. We are going to visit him tomorrow to celebrate his birthday because I cant wait till next weekend when he comes home for a week. I figure they will be off living their own lives celebrating birthdays with out me soon enough I am going to hang on to what I can for as long as I can.
Dave had a meeting after work today to find out his fate at the hospital. 20 people lost their jobs and he got a 3% pay cut. Sucks but at least he still has a job. It was a nerve racking 2 hours waiting for him to call me and let me know he still had a job. But a big relief when he did. I am trying to pick up as many hours as I can get at my new job but lord only knows how long that is going to last. To much uncertainty gives one sleepless nights and ulcer.
I am hoping this warm weather sticks around. It was a mood lifter to be able to go without a coat to work today. And the sun even made an appearance for a short while this afternoon. Sunday brings in longer lit days which also is a big boost to my moods.
well I am off to bed to get well rested for my trip tomorrow to visit the birthday boy.
stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
ttfn
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Sundays seem to be the posting day for me. I have been down and out since Friday with a killer headache and cold symptoms so my weekend was a total wash out. I hate heading into a new week especially now that I am working with nothing being done over the weekend.
Sara is finalizing her plans for graduating early. I told her I wasn't warm and fuzzy about the Idea but if it was truly what she wants to do and she is committed to doing it I am here to support her all the way. I can't separate what I think she will miss from what I am disappointed about missing. Senior year is suppose to be fun filled and remembered for a long time. I don't remember much about my senior year if that tells you anything. By the end of this week we should know for sure if it is going to work out and she will be graduating in August and heading off to MCC in the fall. The hubby is full of doubts just like I am but we cant take it personally she needs to do this and we need to support her as best as we can. Sara's guardian angel is there to to help any way she can so forward we push.
My other college child is turning 19 in one week. I can't believe it. We are going to try and scrap together some money so we can go and have lunch at least with him on Saturday and celebrate his bday. I don't think I can wait till he comes home on the 13 it would be hard for me. Soon enough they will be else where on their birthdays and I will miss enough of them in the future but I am not ready for that quite yet.
I am off to bed and hoping that this bug is gone tomorrow when I wake up to start my week. Sweet dreams to one and all.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved!!!
TTFN
Sunday, February 22, 2009
I guess I owe a few updates here. Sean’s MRI was negative for any problems with his meniscus or his ACL it turns out its bursitis in his knee with a little fluid that is causing his pain. They gave him some exercises to do and told him to take it easy for a little while till the pain ceases. I thought it was fantastic news but he was still very grumpy I think he was a little disappointed he wouldn’t be getting that attentions that surgery would get him. Oh well the sacrifices we must make.
Sara is pushing forward with the graduating early quest. She is making an appointment with the guidance counselor next week so we can discuss the option. I have tried to explain to her no matter how bad she thinks high school is she might regret hurrying out of it into the real world. It doesn’t help that a college coach is calling and all excited at the prospect that she may be coming there in the fall and joining the swim team. I really need some help here with this one and not quite sure who to talk to about it. It may come down to we can’t afford to do it and that will be that but I hate to have that as a reason if she is really determined to do it.
I went yet again to visit Ian in Fred yesterday taking him his new feet and meds and delivering his best friend Joe to hang with him for the night. It was a nice ride down catching up with Joe and then hanging out with them and Erin for a while. I was almost tempted to stay and go out drinking with them. But saner minds prevailed and I came home to my job of picking kids up and putting horses to bed like I am suppose to. I told Ian I would go out bar hopping in Fredonia with him on his 21 birthday that way I wouldn’t feel like I was aiding and abetting an underage drinker. Both Joe and he survived their reunion and had a great time like always. He will be home in a few weeks for his spring break for a whole week.
The 2 middle children went to a Rave last night at a local church. I was told a rave is a crazy dance party with techno music where everybody dresses up in funny clothes and dances like wild, crazy nuts. Sara went with a few of her friends before hand to Salvation Army and picked up a few prime outfit items. She loved the red pants she found.
It must have been a successful rave because they both are sore and tired today for all that crazy dancing.
Sean has almost paid off his debt for the new phone charger. He was out shoveling horse poop with me. I told him he was almost there with the payoff and he seemed surprised that he still owed me. I explained the hourly wage of 7.35 an hour and he only worked 2 hours so far so he still owed me. He didn’t seem to think that was fair that his work was worth more than that. I gave him a choice either the minimum wage or farm wage. Farm wage is 4.55 an hour guess which one he picked. We are trying to teach especially him what things cost and how much one has to work to get these things. Megan is next.
Well I have horse poop perfume and I am cold so it off to the hot shower for me. Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Sara is pushing forward with the graduating early quest. She is making an appointment with the guidance counselor next week so we can discuss the option. I have tried to explain to her no matter how bad she thinks high school is she might regret hurrying out of it into the real world. It doesn’t help that a college coach is calling and all excited at the prospect that she may be coming there in the fall and joining the swim team. I really need some help here with this one and not quite sure who to talk to about it. It may come down to we can’t afford to do it and that will be that but I hate to have that as a reason if she is really determined to do it.
I went yet again to visit Ian in Fred yesterday taking him his new feet and meds and delivering his best friend Joe to hang with him for the night. It was a nice ride down catching up with Joe and then hanging out with them and Erin for a while. I was almost tempted to stay and go out drinking with them. But saner minds prevailed and I came home to my job of picking kids up and putting horses to bed like I am suppose to. I told Ian I would go out bar hopping in Fredonia with him on his 21 birthday that way I wouldn’t feel like I was aiding and abetting an underage drinker. Both Joe and he survived their reunion and had a great time like always. He will be home in a few weeks for his spring break for a whole week.
The 2 middle children went to a Rave last night at a local church. I was told a rave is a crazy dance party with techno music where everybody dresses up in funny clothes and dances like wild, crazy nuts. Sara went with a few of her friends before hand to Salvation Army and picked up a few prime outfit items. She loved the red pants she found.
It must have been a successful rave because they both are sore and tired today for all that crazy dancing.Sean has almost paid off his debt for the new phone charger. He was out shoveling horse poop with me. I told him he was almost there with the payoff and he seemed surprised that he still owed me. I explained the hourly wage of 7.35 an hour and he only worked 2 hours so far so he still owed me. He didn’t seem to think that was fair that his work was worth more than that. I gave him a choice either the minimum wage or farm wage. Farm wage is 4.55 an hour guess which one he picked. We are trying to teach especially him what things cost and how much one has to work to get these things. Megan is next.
Well I have horse poop perfume and I am cold so it off to the hot shower for me. Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Last Saturday I spent the first half weepy and the second half driving to Fredonia to see Ian. I was worried about him for a change and after his slip on the ice the week before that I had this overwhelming urge to drive the 2 hours to see him and give him a hug. It worked I felt better and we had a nice visit. Dave and Meg went along for the ride for support for me. yea right.
Yet another week has flown by and I survived. I worked 4 days at my health department job in 3 different locations. I still love the job and the people I work with which must be a record. The days fly by so fast being that its such a fast past environment and that I am working with such fun and caring people.
I think I figured out why it is such a good fit because doing what they do they have to have a passion and be caring people so I am not working with people that are miserable and hate their job. It is amazing how the vibe can make all the difference.
You have got to be a caring person doing what they do at the clinics, that and a non judgmental one at that. We get some very crazy people in and some very sad ones in. I have definitely learned more about reproductive health and there related issues in the few months I have been there then in my whole life time. The hardest time I have is when the girls come in for the pregnancy tests and are so young and so lost and usually are seeking information on abortion. And then like yesterday when the 8th grader came in for a visit and they did an exam on her which wouldn’t have happened if she hadn’t had sex. Its great that her mom got her in and got her birth control instead of ignoring it but I have a 7th grade. Poor Meg got the lecture when I got home and I got my ewwwww mom no way not till I am married. Oh I only wish it would last.
The clinic is a great resource for these girls and boys/men also and we have gotten very busy at all our sites which is not only good to see the kids being responsible but it’s also scary to see how many are being totally stupid and dangerous in their behavior. Especially at the college where my main days are spent. I just hope my kids are smarter when they leave I tell you its going to make it even harder to let go knowing what I am learning there.
Today is going to be spent at a swim meet being a proud and loud parent cheering on the team. I don’t have anyone swimming but the boys are all a part of the family. I missed prelims and it almost killed me because my inside source wouldn’t text me what was going on. She is finally talking to me again but wasn’t into keeping me updated last night. Even if Sean had made sectionals he wouldn’t have been able to swim. He would have been on academic suspension for 2 weeks and missed them. He failed 2 classes last semester grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
So he is on home suspension. I am not being too hard on him he is worried about the outcome of his knee MRI on Wednesday and the fact he may be out of football for a season. We will know on Monday.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Yet another week has flown by and I survived. I worked 4 days at my health department job in 3 different locations. I still love the job and the people I work with which must be a record. The days fly by so fast being that its such a fast past environment and that I am working with such fun and caring people.
I think I figured out why it is such a good fit because doing what they do they have to have a passion and be caring people so I am not working with people that are miserable and hate their job. It is amazing how the vibe can make all the difference.
You have got to be a caring person doing what they do at the clinics, that and a non judgmental one at that. We get some very crazy people in and some very sad ones in. I have definitely learned more about reproductive health and there related issues in the few months I have been there then in my whole life time. The hardest time I have is when the girls come in for the pregnancy tests and are so young and so lost and usually are seeking information on abortion. And then like yesterday when the 8th grader came in for a visit and they did an exam on her which wouldn’t have happened if she hadn’t had sex. Its great that her mom got her in and got her birth control instead of ignoring it but I have a 7th grade. Poor Meg got the lecture when I got home and I got my ewwwww mom no way not till I am married. Oh I only wish it would last.
The clinic is a great resource for these girls and boys/men also and we have gotten very busy at all our sites which is not only good to see the kids being responsible but it’s also scary to see how many are being totally stupid and dangerous in their behavior. Especially at the college where my main days are spent. I just hope my kids are smarter when they leave I tell you its going to make it even harder to let go knowing what I am learning there.
Today is going to be spent at a swim meet being a proud and loud parent cheering on the team. I don’t have anyone swimming but the boys are all a part of the family. I missed prelims and it almost killed me because my inside source wouldn’t text me what was going on. She is finally talking to me again but wasn’t into keeping me updated last night. Even if Sean had made sectionals he wouldn’t have been able to swim. He would have been on academic suspension for 2 weeks and missed them. He failed 2 classes last semester grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
So he is on home suspension. I am not being too hard on him he is worried about the outcome of his knee MRI on Wednesday and the fact he may be out of football for a season. We will know on Monday.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Sunday, February 08, 2009
Friday, February 06, 2009
I am driving my kids crazy because I have become obsessed with the music from the musical Wicked. Both Sean and Megan got to go and see it on stage up in Rochester last spring. Their chorus teacher every other year gets great deals on amazing stage musicals tickets and gives the kids of our small hick town a taste of Broadway.
Usually when I latch onto an artist or musical I can’t stop listening till I learn all the words by heart. So this is the reason I am driving my kids crazy playing it over and over in the car and at home. But the songs and the words are so meaningful and a few of them are funny and playful. I guess I am just a frustrated singer that never took a chance to sing like I wanted to.
Sean chose not to do the musical this year. I can’t lie I am disappointed that he didn’t. But it’s not that important to him and he didn’t like the one they are doing this year. I am going to miss being involved this year. Unfortunately since he didn’t go out for it the resident idiot that everybody can’t stand got the lead. I am still trying to figure out what the director was thinking she is just getting herself a lot of trouble. Well I guess I don’t have to worry about spending 8 bucks to go see it at least.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Usually when I latch onto an artist or musical I can’t stop listening till I learn all the words by heart. So this is the reason I am driving my kids crazy playing it over and over in the car and at home. But the songs and the words are so meaningful and a few of them are funny and playful. I guess I am just a frustrated singer that never took a chance to sing like I wanted to.
Sean chose not to do the musical this year. I can’t lie I am disappointed that he didn’t. But it’s not that important to him and he didn’t like the one they are doing this year. I am going to miss being involved this year. Unfortunately since he didn’t go out for it the resident idiot that everybody can’t stand got the lead. I am still trying to figure out what the director was thinking she is just getting herself a lot of trouble. Well I guess I don’t have to worry about spending 8 bucks to go see it at least.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Thursday, February 05, 2009
Men!!!!!!
My men are falling apart. Dave, Ian, and Sean all have something going on mentally or physically that isn't good. Ian's blood pressure and drinking are a concern and he hopefully will do something to change things now he has yet another set of professionals telling him he need to make changes. Sean had a dentist appt today and has 11 cavity's and then it was off to the ortho to check out his knee and they seem to think he torn his ACL and may need surgery. Geesh I need duct tape to keep them together I guess.
Its a good thing that I am in one of my manic stages. I had a day at work on Tuesday that if I could have taken the way I felt at the end of the day and held onto it for ever I could conquer the world. It was a crazy busy day and 2 of us did what 3 of us usually barely handle. It was great we were super women and I felt competent, useful, strong and appreciated. I don't think I have ever felt like that at any job I have ever held and very rarely in my life at all.
I guess and hope that this feeling continues and I can help my men to cope with what they are all going through without killing any of them haha. I love them all and hate to see them in such spots of crap. I can't fix it but I can be there to hold hands and say things to help make it better.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Its a good thing that I am in one of my manic stages. I had a day at work on Tuesday that if I could have taken the way I felt at the end of the day and held onto it for ever I could conquer the world. It was a crazy busy day and 2 of us did what 3 of us usually barely handle. It was great we were super women and I felt competent, useful, strong and appreciated. I don't think I have ever felt like that at any job I have ever held and very rarely in my life at all.
I guess and hope that this feeling continues and I can help my men to cope with what they are all going through without killing any of them haha. I love them all and hate to see them in such spots of crap. I can't fix it but I can be there to hold hands and say things to help make it better.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
Have Cape
If I could feel the way I felt at work today all the time I could conquer the world. We had to work with just 2 people when we usually have three so my coworker said oh well guess we will have to just put on our capes and be superwomen. So we did and we did a fantastic job of getting it done and all with smiles on our faces. Gosh I really love my new job can you tell. I felt strong and competent. It helps that I actually have people telling me what a great job I am doing in such a short time and that they are glad I am working with them. Never got that anywhere else I worked and definitely not at home lol.
Tomorrow is a "day off" and I am hoping I can feed off this feeling and get some much needed things done around here. Pinch me I think I am dreaming no wait I am off to bed and need to get to sleep so nix that.
I didn't get much sleep the past few nights because I was worried about the college boy. He had a little accident on some ice Saturday night and fell and popped his shoulder out of socket. Helplessness not being there to take care of him but I was able to guide from afar and he is doing better for now.
So I am off to bed where its warm and comfy to rest up for another day of challenges to conquer good thing I brought my cape home from work.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Tomorrow is a "day off" and I am hoping I can feed off this feeling and get some much needed things done around here. Pinch me I think I am dreaming no wait I am off to bed and need to get to sleep so nix that.
I didn't get much sleep the past few nights because I was worried about the college boy. He had a little accident on some ice Saturday night and fell and popped his shoulder out of socket. Helplessness not being there to take care of him but I was able to guide from afar and he is doing better for now.
So I am off to bed where its warm and comfy to rest up for another day of challenges to conquer good thing I brought my cape home from work.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Season has come to an end......
This is the before
This is what he looked likeat 2pm yesterday before
I took him down to swim
practice.
This Is what he looked like when
he came back up to the house
for the pre counties meet
spaghetti dinner.
I tired to convince him not to do it
see how well he listens.
He didn't end up qualifying for sectionals
today but he did meet his goals of
1. getting under 7:00 in the 500
he got a 6:53.80 taking 15
seconds off his best for the year.
2. to shave off at least 8 seconds
from his 200 time. He got
a 2:29.11 shaving 10 off
So I guess the hair is a drag so to speak.
It was a long day and our team had some
great finishes and some personal
records broken. Well worth sitting on
those hard bleachers for 6 hours cheering
our hearts out. We are loud and proud the
parents of Dansville.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Friday, January 30, 2009
Teachers
Here is the video that Sara was asked to put
together by the superintendent for today's
teachers conference day. He had seen the
one she did for chemistry and asked her to
do it to show the staff at there meeting today.
She of course waited, like a true O'Brien,
to the last minute and stayed up all night
last night putting the final touches on it.
It turned out great and the staff enjoyed it.
And we survived the creative process.
I call her the volcano because anytime she is
stressed out and trying to do something like this
the name pretty much sums it up. She had a
rough start a few days ago with some question
of maybe puke in the brush cleaning water and
that her sister might have had something to do
with it. That is still under investigation but it
set a tone and we are just all glad it is done and
it went well.
Tomorrow is her 17th birthday and she will be
spending it with about 400 teenage boys in
swim suits. Its a sacrifice but she is willing to
do it for the team.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Thursday, January 29, 2009
I THE WEEK OVER YET??????
I worked 4 days this week. It has been a long time since I have done that and boy oh boy am I tired. I can’t even recoup tomorrow because I have to prepare for the boys swim team coming up after practice tomorrow for the pre county meet spaghetti dinner, all 23 of them. My friend Barb is thankfully helping me out and we will get them fed and energized for the meet on Saturday.
Sean is going to shave his golden locks tomorrow. Since he hasn’t qualified for sectional yet this is his last chance so he has been on taper this past week and a half and will shave tomorrow after practice. I have tried to convince him to just trim his hair and wear a swim cap but to no avail. He is one of the team is going to do it. Oh well hopefully it will grow back the same.
Sara has a presentation tomorrow morning in front of all the teachers of the district and the superintendent. She did this awesome chemistry project that came to the attention of the administration and they asked her to put together something similar that shows what the school and teachers of Dansville are all about. She has been having a tough time doing it because it has guidelines and it seems to me messing with her artistic mojo. Plus she isn’t the one to come up with much positive about high school because its been hell for her. We even started looking into ways that she might be able to graduate early just to end the hell and so she can move on.
My new job is great and I work with some fantastic woman. I of course am learning more than I could ever want to know about reproductive health and about statistics from our area that I could blissfully be ignorant about. I also subbed this week in the middle school office and witnessed some amazing people dealing with some really pain in the ass kids. Never a dull moment on either job site that is for sure.
Dave is nervous about the impending cuts to the hospital budget and the fact that he is doing the work of two and a half people since they are so short staffed. They treat their employees like dirt there and don’t even realize what a diamond they have with Dave as their employee. We are going to try and use some of our tax refund if it doesn’t all get spent before we get it to go away for a few days again. We are both soooooo couple deprived.
Oh this week also I have attempted to take wheat out of my diet. I am pretty sure, pending a blood test, I have that celiac disease like Brian and Ruthann. It is tough and eventually Im not sure how I will afford to make it a permanent change. I need to do something before I drop dead of a heart attack but it sucks. lol. Ian also has to change is health habits. He found out his blood pressure is way to high for an 18 yr old and his cholesterol is almost as bad as mine.
So I am off to find something to eat for dinner probably another omelet and then off to bed to get up tomorrow and begin again.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
Sean is going to shave his golden locks tomorrow. Since he hasn’t qualified for sectional yet this is his last chance so he has been on taper this past week and a half and will shave tomorrow after practice. I have tried to convince him to just trim his hair and wear a swim cap but to no avail. He is one of the team is going to do it. Oh well hopefully it will grow back the same.
Sara has a presentation tomorrow morning in front of all the teachers of the district and the superintendent. She did this awesome chemistry project that came to the attention of the administration and they asked her to put together something similar that shows what the school and teachers of Dansville are all about. She has been having a tough time doing it because it has guidelines and it seems to me messing with her artistic mojo. Plus she isn’t the one to come up with much positive about high school because its been hell for her. We even started looking into ways that she might be able to graduate early just to end the hell and so she can move on.
My new job is great and I work with some fantastic woman. I of course am learning more than I could ever want to know about reproductive health and about statistics from our area that I could blissfully be ignorant about. I also subbed this week in the middle school office and witnessed some amazing people dealing with some really pain in the ass kids. Never a dull moment on either job site that is for sure.
Dave is nervous about the impending cuts to the hospital budget and the fact that he is doing the work of two and a half people since they are so short staffed. They treat their employees like dirt there and don’t even realize what a diamond they have with Dave as their employee. We are going to try and use some of our tax refund if it doesn’t all get spent before we get it to go away for a few days again. We are both soooooo couple deprived.
Oh this week also I have attempted to take wheat out of my diet. I am pretty sure, pending a blood test, I have that celiac disease like Brian and Ruthann. It is tough and eventually Im not sure how I will afford to make it a permanent change. I need to do something before I drop dead of a heart attack but it sucks. lol. Ian also has to change is health habits. He found out his blood pressure is way to high for an 18 yr old and his cholesterol is almost as bad as mine.
So I am off to find something to eat for dinner probably another omelet and then off to bed to get up tomorrow and begin again.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Siblings
Siblings are so much like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde it is still amazing to me.
Case in point first you have Megan and Sean. They can’t even be in the same house together without it becoming family feud not even 5 minutes some times of entering the house. Megan came sobbing out to the barn last night because Sean had grabbed her and squeezed her so hard her boob hurt but this is after a softball, deceiving name, was thrown at him. I was mad but I don’t have much sympathy for her these days because she is just as responsible in these fights as he is. But when bodily harm is occurring it’s unacceptable. So the ultimate threat has been played and hopefully there will be a cease fire for a while.
But take two others, Sara and Sean, and the story is totally different at least right now. Sara’s boyfriend broke up with her over the weekend and she was, as most of us are, devastated. I wanted to comfort her but Sean beat me to the punch. He was there hugging and reassuring her. It was nice to see. It’s too bad it takes something like that to make the true feelings come out of these children but at least I know they don’t really mean it when they say they hate each other.
Hopefully things will quiet between the younger two before the house or they themselves get wrecked. For now it’s just trying to stay warm and not go stir crazy because it’s so freaking cold outside. Keeping my fingers cross the pipes in the barn don’t freeze and I have to lug water from the house to the barn because Ian won’t be here to help me this year. He heads back to school in a week and a half.
Cleaning then swim meet at least I know I will be warm part of the day got to love swimming.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Case in point first you have Megan and Sean. They can’t even be in the same house together without it becoming family feud not even 5 minutes some times of entering the house. Megan came sobbing out to the barn last night because Sean had grabbed her and squeezed her so hard her boob hurt but this is after a softball, deceiving name, was thrown at him. I was mad but I don’t have much sympathy for her these days because she is just as responsible in these fights as he is. But when bodily harm is occurring it’s unacceptable. So the ultimate threat has been played and hopefully there will be a cease fire for a while.
But take two others, Sara and Sean, and the story is totally different at least right now. Sara’s boyfriend broke up with her over the weekend and she was, as most of us are, devastated. I wanted to comfort her but Sean beat me to the punch. He was there hugging and reassuring her. It was nice to see. It’s too bad it takes something like that to make the true feelings come out of these children but at least I know they don’t really mean it when they say they hate each other.
Hopefully things will quiet between the younger two before the house or they themselves get wrecked. For now it’s just trying to stay warm and not go stir crazy because it’s so freaking cold outside. Keeping my fingers cross the pipes in the barn don’t freeze and I have to lug water from the house to the barn because Ian won’t be here to help me this year. He heads back to school in a week and a half.
Cleaning then swim meet at least I know I will be warm part of the day got to love swimming.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Monday, January 05, 2009
Solo For The First time
Today I flew solo at work. Well not solo but I did the whole thing and didn’t just stand and watch someone else do it. The other woman was able to go and catch up on other things and I had the billing person there to answer questions and the nurses let me know if I forgot something. It’s a lot of paper work and remembering what to put in the file etc. but the day flew by in no time. I love jobs like that. I also already got 2 extra days in February. I have a few more weeks of so called training then I start on the 20th at the college at my normal place for Mondays and Tuesdays.
It’s amazing how I feel when I have some place to go and something that challenges me. I pretty much spent the past week in bed not feeling well and not having much motivation to do anything. I think once I get on a regular schedule and start swimming again things will hopefully turn around for me health wise. I am so sick of feeling sick and tired and want to do things but just can’t seem to make myself.
My husbands work isn’t going so well right now and things are tough for him too. The financial pressure right now is so so heavy on both of us that I am hoping that this new job not only helps me mentally but also help us to stop the downward slip into the credit abyss and hold us steady then move us toward the light again gradually.
We both are falling apart mentally and physically and the things around the house and farm aren’t looking much better right now. Some major decisions will have to be made in near future but for now I will put them on the back burner.
I will continue to emulate Scarlet O’Hara and not think about it till tomorrow and go to bed because I am beat. This is the first day in a week I have been up more than 5 hours in a row without a nap and I am going on 16 hours with only 3 hours of sleep last night. My bed is calling my name can you hear it………..
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
It’s amazing how I feel when I have some place to go and something that challenges me. I pretty much spent the past week in bed not feeling well and not having much motivation to do anything. I think once I get on a regular schedule and start swimming again things will hopefully turn around for me health wise. I am so sick of feeling sick and tired and want to do things but just can’t seem to make myself.
My husbands work isn’t going so well right now and things are tough for him too. The financial pressure right now is so so heavy on both of us that I am hoping that this new job not only helps me mentally but also help us to stop the downward slip into the credit abyss and hold us steady then move us toward the light again gradually.
We both are falling apart mentally and physically and the things around the house and farm aren’t looking much better right now. Some major decisions will have to be made in near future but for now I will put them on the back burner.
I will continue to emulate Scarlet O’Hara and not think about it till tomorrow and go to bed because I am beat. This is the first day in a week I have been up more than 5 hours in a row without a nap and I am going on 16 hours with only 3 hours of sleep last night. My bed is calling my name can you hear it………..
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
Saturday, January 03, 2009
3 down 362 to go
Here we are 3 days into the year 2009. We had 3 out of four kids home for the night. Sara couldn't stand missing out on the get together at a friend’s house so she left us at 9. We watched movies and ate way too much junk food.
I don’t make new years resolutions anymore. I gave that up about 8 years ago for the only reason that usually I don’t even make it the first week into the New Year before I break them. This year I am going to try and keep a positive as possible attitude and trudge forward hoping for the best. The kids are all relatively healthy and happy and we have food to eat and a roof over our heads for now at least. There’s a lot to be said for that especially during these unsure times.
Ian succeeded in attaining a 3.0 in his first semester of college. It actually was a 3.07 but who’s counting :). He is enjoying his time off and “catching” up on sleep he says he didn’t get. He will be off to his second semester on the 24th I hope the separation isn’t as crazy as the first time in August. It’s kind of nice to have him home.
I do have to try and commit to getting a new doctor and start taking better care of myself before I drop dead of a heart attack. I am still fuming about my last doctors visit where she brushed over the results of my blood tests which were rechecks for bad results 6 months ago. All I know is I am sick of being tired and sick and not being able to either stand up for myself and ask for the help I need or find an actually doctor that isn’t to busy to listen.
The list of things that need to be done around here lengthens and money and energy shorten. I have to decide on changes that will be hard to make but necessary probably in the long run. But for now it can wait till tomorrow. Gee I feel like Scarlet O’Hara.
Once again a Happy New Year to one and all. I am truly blest with amazing family and friends that if it weren’t for them I am pretty sure I would be dead by now. May the New Year bring peace and happiness.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
I don’t make new years resolutions anymore. I gave that up about 8 years ago for the only reason that usually I don’t even make it the first week into the New Year before I break them. This year I am going to try and keep a positive as possible attitude and trudge forward hoping for the best. The kids are all relatively healthy and happy and we have food to eat and a roof over our heads for now at least. There’s a lot to be said for that especially during these unsure times.
Ian succeeded in attaining a 3.0 in his first semester of college. It actually was a 3.07 but who’s counting :). He is enjoying his time off and “catching” up on sleep he says he didn’t get. He will be off to his second semester on the 24th I hope the separation isn’t as crazy as the first time in August. It’s kind of nice to have him home.
I do have to try and commit to getting a new doctor and start taking better care of myself before I drop dead of a heart attack. I am still fuming about my last doctors visit where she brushed over the results of my blood tests which were rechecks for bad results 6 months ago. All I know is I am sick of being tired and sick and not being able to either stand up for myself and ask for the help I need or find an actually doctor that isn’t to busy to listen.
The list of things that need to be done around here lengthens and money and energy shorten. I have to decide on changes that will be hard to make but necessary probably in the long run. But for now it can wait till tomorrow. Gee I feel like Scarlet O’Hara.
Once again a Happy New Year to one and all. I am truly blest with amazing family and friends that if it weren’t for them I am pretty sure I would be dead by now. May the New Year bring peace and happiness.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
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