I am wondering if maybe I change the name of my blog that I might not be living it so often? Just a thought, a wishful thought at that but I highly doubt it would make much of a difference.
The only thing that is really going well right now is my job. The hubby and I went for a night out to get away and reconnect because things have been to say the least very tense between us. We try every year at least once around the time we get our taxes back to do this and have my mother in law come down and sit with the kids. This year the mother in law had other things going on so we figured gee middle of the week 3 of the kids have school and the activities attached to that so we figured maybe just maybe the college boy could for go socializing or drinking for just one night and take care of the homestead. Bet you can guess what the answer to that is? NOT!!!!
Our night was cut short at 1:26am when we received the telephone call from Ian about Police officers in the house and he was being taken to Geneseo to be fingerprinted and photographed and a statement taken. So a hasty packing in sued, quick check out of the hotel and a long hour ride to Geneseo to pick up Ian. We finally go home at 4am not well rested and reconnected the way the night was suppose to go but very tired and devastated with a long range mess to face.
We thought the stress level in the house was already near the breaking point but now it is scary and unbearable at times. Not sure how it will all pan out because there are so many factors that could cause difficult consequences for especially Ian’s future. One dumb mistake and poof life just got a hell of a lot harder. He is in a self destruct mode and needs to wake up and start doing the things he needs to do to make it all better now before he finds himself to deep to turn back easily.
We have always tried to share our experiences and our regrets and things we would have done different with the kids and hoped that lessons that we had to learn the hard way would be helpful guides to what not to do. But it seems that it is true what they say they have to make their own mistakes in order to learn and grow and a rare few learn from others mistakes. I just hope that this is a harsh wake up call to both my older children and they do learn from this and change the path they are walking down right now.
So we wake up each morning put our feet on the floor and move forward into our day hoping that the tape and glue holds till the healing and permanent sealing of the wound is complete.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
The only thing that is really going well right now is my job. The hubby and I went for a night out to get away and reconnect because things have been to say the least very tense between us. We try every year at least once around the time we get our taxes back to do this and have my mother in law come down and sit with the kids. This year the mother in law had other things going on so we figured gee middle of the week 3 of the kids have school and the activities attached to that so we figured maybe just maybe the college boy could for go socializing or drinking for just one night and take care of the homestead. Bet you can guess what the answer to that is? NOT!!!!
Our night was cut short at 1:26am when we received the telephone call from Ian about Police officers in the house and he was being taken to Geneseo to be fingerprinted and photographed and a statement taken. So a hasty packing in sued, quick check out of the hotel and a long hour ride to Geneseo to pick up Ian. We finally go home at 4am not well rested and reconnected the way the night was suppose to go but very tired and devastated with a long range mess to face.
We thought the stress level in the house was already near the breaking point but now it is scary and unbearable at times. Not sure how it will all pan out because there are so many factors that could cause difficult consequences for especially Ian’s future. One dumb mistake and poof life just got a hell of a lot harder. He is in a self destruct mode and needs to wake up and start doing the things he needs to do to make it all better now before he finds himself to deep to turn back easily.
We have always tried to share our experiences and our regrets and things we would have done different with the kids and hoped that lessons that we had to learn the hard way would be helpful guides to what not to do. But it seems that it is true what they say they have to make their own mistakes in order to learn and grow and a rare few learn from others mistakes. I just hope that this is a harsh wake up call to both my older children and they do learn from this and change the path they are walking down right now.
So we wake up each morning put our feet on the floor and move forward into our day hoping that the tape and glue holds till the healing and permanent sealing of the wound is complete.
Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved.
TTFN
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