Music is an amazing thing. It has helped me through a lot of major downs in my life and is apart of some of my major highs also. I have had a song from Wicked keeping me going these past few weeks but even that is beginning to lose its lifting power.
Shit after more shit keeps hitting the fan. The latest is my computer being attacked by a virus so now we have 2 computers out of commission due to some one elses malice and no money to get them fixed. Mine is not as vital as my hubby's because I have a lot of other things in my life to keep me occupied namely 4 children, 4 horses, a dumb ass cat and dog. But it was just another wave of what next.
It is really pathetic when you can't even afford to pay for the overdue fines on a book at the library to take another one out. After the bank mistake, which don't get me wrong could have been much worse and I am thankful for that, its been really a lesson in frugality around here for the past week and a half. The stress is overwhelming at times.
I tried last night to make a gratitude list but breathing was about all I could come up with and even that I am at times not sure I am even grateful for. It hurts to much. I am grateful but at the same time tired so tired.
So here is my attempt at the list of 10 again.
1. That all my children are safe and healthy for the most part.
2. That I have a wonderful partner in my life that even when we are yelling at each other I know that this too will pass and at the base we love each other deeply and always will.
3. That I have a job that I like.
4. That I have a roof over my head for now.
5. That I have wonderful people in my life that love me and are there for me if I only ask
6.
oh well 5 is better than one.
Off to the barn to appreciate my horses for a while.
Stay safe, Stay warm, Feel loved.
TTFN
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