Life without chaos BORING

What would my life be without chaos? BORING!! I would be sleeping my life away I'm pretty sure. I am sitting here trying to think of something to write but am distracted by thoughts of a good friend facing a very hard time in her life. I know because I have been there before, not the exact place, but way to familar. The people pleasing caretaker inside of me wants so badly to make it go away and fix it. She unfortunatly will have to "feel the feelings" which I know she will do because she is a strong woman. Even if she doesn't think so. She is doing what she needs to do to fend off any regrets for the future no matter how painful that may be. She may not know it but she is taking care of herself. She is my hero!! She has been there for me for about 25 years. She has helped me survive the unsurvivable. We don't see each other very often but I know and I hope she knows that no matter what I am here for her. I was never very good at making friends, still have a hard time opening up to new people. I don't have a quanity of close women in my life but the ones that are there are the quality ones. Long lasting ones so if I attach to you be prepared for the long hall. You could accuse me of being picky. But thats just fine because I am blessed with some extraordinary women in my life. I will survive the chaos because I have them to guide me through it if I just remember to ASK.
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