CALGON TAKE ME AWAY PLEASEEEEEEEE

I opened the flood gates this morning and seem to have broken off the faucet so I can't turn them off. This menopausal shit is for the birds. It couldn't have been that big of a deal to pick that apple and get booted out of the Garden to warrant what we women go through during our life time. I keep focusing on the fact that it could be worse I could be bleeding to death at this time also but even that is wearing thin. Another sleepless night under my belt between hot flashes and worrying about my daughter dieing in her sleep.
Sara had a head on collision in the pool about 2 weeks ago and got a pretty good bump on her head. Since then when ever she swims her head hurts and it has got worse over the ensuing weeks. I took her to the doctor today and she is pulled from swimming till she is symptom free for a week. She has the big meet on Thursday which they had a slight chance of maybe beating the team from Livonia for the first time but now that chance is gone. I don't know who is more disappointed her or me. I am pissed at myself for not being a better mom and taking her to the doctor the day after it happened but I didn't. The coaches said she was fine. Suck it up. I have been on the verge of tears for the past 2 weeks over little things in my life but today there was no holding them back. Add to it all the dog ripping his nail half way off and a trip to the vet that I can't afford,the fact the hubby has been unsuccessful in finding a replacement per Diem job with truck payment and loan payments looming, and my dream job seemingly not becoming a reality, well pass the tissues.
I love just walking along at a nice even keel and then having someone pull the rug out from under you. I have never been good at dealing with the twists in the road of life so when the major pits happen all at once, adding in freaking menopause, I am useless. I guess I need to "suck it up".
I have to concentrate and be strong for my daughter and poor Henry who is following me around in spite of his foot because he knows mom is upset. One foot in front of the other and resist the urge to dive under my pillow and never come out again.
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