I finally realized why I love horses so much and why I have a way with them. You have 2 types of animals, the fight or the flight type. Horses are flight animals, reacting to danger and strange situations with fear and running away and that’s me too.
I am so sick of people and personalities. I am ready to move into the woods with my horses and animals and live happily ever after, only having minimum contact on an as needed basis. Unfortunately it would probably only last a short time because in spite of it all I need human contact and people to talk to I just wish I would be drawn to real people not evil people out to rip your heart out.
I watch as my children seem to find the same type of people and in spite of trying to be a true friend they turn on them and rip their hearts out.
I have hardened some over the years but still tend to trust in the best in people only to be used and stomped on. Makes you wonder why even try anymore just become that hard as nails bitch and not let anyone close enough and scare everybody away with a look. But try as I might I can’t darn it.
I find this most lately in jobs I have done and applied for. Rejection is a whole other story but you do a great job only to get spit on and pushed aside I don’t get it. If that is how all employers treat employees no wonder we have such a lazy work force.
I am going through the nerve racking process of trying to find a job any job because we desperately need the money but one rejection after the other is killing me. I even checked into getting my old job back that I left in August that is how desperate I am. I broke my ass for 3 years and cleaned up a major mess before I left and I get the cold shoulder when I inquired. Um I think if it were them I would jump at the chance to have an employee that not only knows the job already but fixed it in the first place.
Okay I am done with the nobody likes me, everybody hates me, I’m going to eat some worms. I am just feeling very drained and unappreciated lately. Holidays always seem to just exasperate the feelings this time of year.
I will find out later tomorrow I hope if I got at least a part time job I interviewed for last week and go from there. Off to go down the hill yet again for another pickup/drop-off for someone or something.
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I am so sick of people and personalities. I am ready to move into the woods with my horses and animals and live happily ever after, only having minimum contact on an as needed basis. Unfortunately it would probably only last a short time because in spite of it all I need human contact and people to talk to I just wish I would be drawn to real people not evil people out to rip your heart out.
I watch as my children seem to find the same type of people and in spite of trying to be a true friend they turn on them and rip their hearts out.
I have hardened some over the years but still tend to trust in the best in people only to be used and stomped on. Makes you wonder why even try anymore just become that hard as nails bitch and not let anyone close enough and scare everybody away with a look. But try as I might I can’t darn it.
I find this most lately in jobs I have done and applied for. Rejection is a whole other story but you do a great job only to get spit on and pushed aside I don’t get it. If that is how all employers treat employees no wonder we have such a lazy work force.
I am going through the nerve racking process of trying to find a job any job because we desperately need the money but one rejection after the other is killing me. I even checked into getting my old job back that I left in August that is how desperate I am. I broke my ass for 3 years and cleaned up a major mess before I left and I get the cold shoulder when I inquired. Um I think if it were them I would jump at the chance to have an employee that not only knows the job already but fixed it in the first place.
Okay I am done with the nobody likes me, everybody hates me, I’m going to eat some worms. I am just feeling very drained and unappreciated lately. Holidays always seem to just exasperate the feelings this time of year.
I will find out later tomorrow I hope if I got at least a part time job I interviewed for last week and go from there. Off to go down the hill yet again for another pickup/drop-off for someone or something.
ttfn
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