Madopause

Are we having fun yet? I finally got to the doctor to talk
about my symptoms of menopause and almost chickened out again.
It was a younger version of the doctor I went to see 2 years
ago. One I could barely understand what she was saying and when
she asked a question she was saying ah um before I finished responding
to her question. But instead of shutting down and saying what ever I
had a menopausal meltdown which have become more frequent lately. I said look
I am going on 46 years old and I do not want to take birth control pills.
I have tried the antidepressant route to no avail. My mother and sister had
similar problems at this age and they both had it removed and swear by it.
What do we need to do to get it ripped out. She paused and said well if that
is the way you want to go there are a few things we have to do. So I go the 16th for
an ultrasound which I hear is loads of fun then a partial D&C a week later. Then hopefully in the near future I can have my sanity back before I totally scar my youngest child. I had one of those crying jags yesterday that I couldn't stop.
Poor Megan was beside herself. I said I was ok etc. but yeah right mom you are crying hysterically your not fine. I tried to explain what was going on without scaring the shit out of her about the blessed event of menstruation. It doesn't help that I threw my back out yesterday morning and my arm is getting worse to add to the insanity factor known as my life. Then the topper of the vacation and it only started yesterday is my Dumb ass son went and got his lip pierced. Yes you heard me.
My husband is going to have a cow when he sees it. I don't even want to be in the same state. Ian's prom date blew him off earlier this week for another boy. It wasn't a big surprise but still hurt like hell anyway. So to act out on his feelings he went and did this. My husband doesn't ask much of these kids but has made it clear that self mutilizantion for ornamentation is not allow and you can do what ever you want when you are out of the house and paying your own bills. I cant ever do calgon take me away because I don't have a tub to soak in. God help us all. Megan wasn't happy with her older brother either. She doesn't like the ring and thought it would change her big warm fuzzy brother. She was pouting in her room and you will never guess who was concerned about her feeling that way and came down and gave me a talking to. She has feelings and cares about her sister. I knew it I just never have seen her show it so strongly before.
I wish I could find Ian the most beautiful girl to take to prom to make the bitch jealous but I have to let Ian take care of it himself. I did though tell him that she is walking around thinking that he is ok with the situation and he needs to let her know how he feels and not let her get away scott free on the emotional plain.
Well The hubby will be home soon so I think I will go back to bed so I don't have to see him I will hear soon enough when he sees the ring. Anybody have a spare bed room for me.
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