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Tomorrow I go for my hystoscopy and D&C. I slept in this morning to avoid thinking about it and now I got up and started to clean. I compulsively cleaned. I often go crazy cleaning when I feel like I have no control. The kids know to run for the hills or pitch in. Good thing every body was at school. I know everything is going to be fine. But the mind is a terrible place to be and it is making me crazy. Taking the time off work is going to make us short for the next few weeks and the added stress of the unknown is making me have a panic attack. Its the attack of the what ifs. I had to call between 1 and 3 to see when I am suppose to show up tomorrow and its at 8am. I am so glad its first thing.
I am headed out to Sara's track meet and some distraction. She finally made 8ft the other day and came in second. Saturday at the Invitational in Wayland she got 3rd in pole vault and 3 in her 4x800 relay. There where about 12 school participating.
Well I am off to the track meet and I will update when I can. Wish me luck.

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