I feel like I need to crawl out of my skin. Go somewhere that is safe, quiet, and dark. I hate the unknown and want to leap ahead, flip to the end of the book to find out the ending. I am in a place I haven't been in quite awhile and am not liking it one bit. This is the time I wish I had more faith in a power bigger than myself so I could turn it over. Funny how a little thing like trying to pay bills and getting letters from you kids teachers can set things off. I haven't been able to talk to anyone because it would make whats going on so more real. I am a big baby listen to me. Hormones and the unknown bad combo. Eat some chocolate. That doesn't even work. Ive gained back the 25 pounds I fought hard to lose over the past year added more to the agony that is me.

Well the break is over and I need to resume my life as it is. The kids will be tumbling in pretty soon and I still have to pay those bills and get ready to tell my oldest daughter her weekend plans are canceled.
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