SH**

I actually swore at the doctors office yesterday.

I hardly ever let one slip in public but yesterday

was different. As I assumed the postion at the

doctors office and heard the continuos flow of

liquid I knew I wasn't obtaining freedom from the

artifical penis I have been touting for over 2 weeks

now. I took all I had to not break down and sob

hysterically. So thus the uttering of SH**>

I had thought for sure earlier that morning

things were going well down there.

I was very optimistic going in. But then hits the shy

potter goer syndrome. I know that was most of it.

You would think I have had my femininity flaunted in

front of total strangers but I still suffer from public

shyness. So I am stuck with my little friend till at

least Monday and if it follows me home on Monday

just take me directly to the padded room do not pass

go do not collect 200 dollars.

I am just going totally crazy from being house bound

for over two weeks now. I can drive again as soon as I

am off the pain killers but those are still needed to some

extent. I made my husband stop at Walmart on the way

home from my appointment so I could just walk around

and be out of the house a little longer. I hate Walmart

so that tells you how desperate I was. I asked about camp

again and the doctor said sure as long as the catheter is out

and I am very good and don't over do. So if I can avoid a gall

bladder attack between now and then I get to go someplace for

a whole week, change of people, change of scenery I am there.

The girls are off to Stony Brook today to swim and hike and do

some sister bonding,(it doesn't hurt that the boy Sara likes is a

life guard there). I want to goooooooo. I am sooooooo boreeeddd.

Ha Ha I sound like my kids now I understand some of what they

mean. But they have a choose of things they could be doing were

as mine as so limited.

Okay so I will stop feeling sorry for myself and maybe fold some

laundry and make lists for camp.

ttfn