HO HO HO

I have a whole 45 minutes till i have to run out the door again. When all I want to do is crawl into bed. Isn't Happening!!!!

This time of year has always been the worst for me. When the time changes and the sun starts to go down at 4pm the depression usually sets in. I have to say for the past 5 years I have been able to fight the downward spiral and stay pretty even keel. This year is a fight once again. Once that sprial starts it is hard to pull up. My body shuts down and fights me every inch of the way.

Of course you always have the family drama this time of year to add to the fun. I don't see or speak to most of my family all year and then Christmas time rolls around and the drama begins.
I can usually repel the crap flung around but this year is showing signs of hits. I know I may lose control and say something and not be my mild mannered self aka rug wipe your feet. It was apparent at work the other day when i came within inches of telling my boss to fuck off. My job sucks and i could spend a whole entire blog on it but lets just say i work for a passive aggressive person[my mother figure] and she knows i won't fight back so she steps over the line often because she can. The other women that have had my job before me walked over her so im a nice change of pace.

I don' know what i want to be when i grow up but i sure not going to be doing this job forever. I called the local college yesterday and I think i may get my feet wet taking a course or 2 that i get college credit for. The lady at the college said i should jump in with both feet but I of course laughed saying gee, how, I guess i could give up sleeping and eating both of which are highly over rated. So for now i will put up with the job from hell and "build my resume" as my hubby puts it so i can move on when i grow up.

So I am ho ho ho - ing on my way and hoping i survive.
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