I have been trying very hard to focus on the positive things in my life in the last week or so to save myself from a total break down. In normal circumstances it is easy to do but i am so worn down that its a struggle to even think of anything beyond the obivious. I must be pretty bad becuase the husband is being the voice of the glass is half full lately not me. Now that is an amazing thing in itself. I of course love my kids but beyond that its a stretch.
We are trying to deal with the company that screwed us over with our mortgage right now and the pit of my stomach is saying be wary. Unfortunately we have to see if we can work things out with them becuase no one else is willing to touch us until we get more equity in the house. I wish we could go back to the barter system. I am feeling very trapped in almost every part of my life right now and the usual response is to crawl into bed and never get up again. But life goes on and I am no longer single and able to retreat like i use to.
I have my swimming which keeps me moving both physically and mental for now. I even went this morning with a 102 fever and a nasty sore throat. Took the day off from work to help recoup from this lovely cold I have and ended up taking kids to the doctor and running other peoples kids to different events this afternoon and cleaning for a party tonight and my Mother in law spending the night tomorrow. Sara is having a sleep over tonight and i am the official taxi service. Tomorrow isnt boding well either for any type of respite for me to collapse. Thank goodness for Sundays. That is the day of the week that i usually collapse and sleep all day long. I guess when they are all grown and gone i will miss this craziness but right now im just exhausted. Welcome to mother hood of teenagers.
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