Football

I just spent most of my evening

watching a game I use to avoid

watching at all costs. But I figure

the next four years I will be going to

and watching football so I might

as well get use to it and learn all

I can about it. Plus it was fun

watching Sean getting all worked

up and excited about his team

winning. Well not his first choice

of teams but he felt he should root

for the home team in this one.

Yesterday was tough both on Ian

and me. The disappointment I felt

sitting there and hearing my sons

name announce for an event yet

knowing he wouldn't be standing

on that block getting ready to swim

his heart out. I am so angry at both

of them for taking one of my lasts away

from me. Leaving in its place a painful

memory. But I love them deeply and I am

glad they are here for me to be mad at.

Tomorrow starts a new week and a

new chapter that hopefully will be a

boring read for a little while. Then maybe

I can concentrate on taking care of myself

and doing the things I have been neglecting

for too long.

ttfn