The full force of yesterdays
events hit me as I was walking
out to the barn this morning.
I haven’t had that type of chest
crushing panic and emotion hit
me that hard in a very long time.
I am basically an insecure
person as it is but what little
security I had has been put in
question.

I wish I could write what happened
and how I am feeling right now but
I can’t. One is because it is a mish mash
of emotion still and the other is
it involves my hubby and he reads
my blog. I am not as brave as
a friend of mine who can write
what she feels most of the time
in her blog without concern as
to who reads it but I am not
there yet.

I have to “survive” this just
like I always do.
But with hope that the big
white farting elephant in
the living room is exposed
enough now to be addressed.

Love, peace and rockin roll.

ttfn