It seems to be working this new

agreement I have with my 2 older

children. I realized they are going to

do things I don't agree with but I would

rather be in the loop than out of the loop.

Hey its a Friday night and they are both

home for the night and its only 10:30pm.

I have to let go of my oldest in less than a

month. I am not so sure I will be able

to. I think I waited to long. He will be

fine not so sure about me. I will have to

stop myself from texting him every

day. Okay maybe for the first 2 weeks

I will do it everyday but then I promise

I will wean myself off of it. Right!!!!

My niece crashed and burned out

of her first year of college. I am hoping

Ian makes better choices and gets

everything out of the experience that

he can yet graduate with a degree. I

can't get across to him the deep regret

I have for screwing up my "college

experience."

I have to stop myself from doing

everything for him before he leaves.

Man its hard.

I have tried to leave the foot work up

to him to get everything set. He took

care of his loans and financial aid stuff.

I was just the secretary for faxing etc.

I did help out with his work study job

though. I got him the job in the library

instead of working in the daycare center.

He owes me.

Now that we have entered August it

is getting to close for me. Hopefully

we will have a wonderful vacation

in Maine to end the summer and

launch him into his college life.

I have to let go and hope that all

we have taught them will help

them make good choices and to

succeed.

ttfn