Date

I went on a date this afternoon. It was a nice escape to the movies to watch beautiful places and fabulous horses running through the beautiful places. My friend figured I could use a day out and invited me on Saturday and I jumped at the chance. She also had a you think your life is bad right now story for me about a mutual person we know. She just recovered from breast cancer and her husband was just diagnostic with a brain tumor and is having surgery on Monday. This couple is amazing they take life as it comes and are so zen. If you look hard enough you will find someone that has a worse life then you but that still doesn't diminish what is going on in your life. My problems are just as important than anyone's else's. I am not going to feel guilty. I have a right to feel my feelings and feel overwhelmed by what is going on in my life. I have always put other peoples problems a head of mine. Trying to fix them so I didn't have to look at my mess then come back and surprise its still there and hasn't gone anywhere its just got bigger. I wish I could have the zen attitude about everything and take things as they come and sometimes I can when its a thing here or there but lately its been 5 things a day. High waves pummeling you one after the other after the other. I feel bruised and battered and really tired. But I am still putting one foot in front of the other because logically I know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I will hopefully get there eventually without taking any dangerous detours. TTFN