Christmas is coming up fast and the feeling of having nothing for the kids to open on Christmas morning is rising like panic to my brain. Why is it so important? They have been really good in that they haven't had the I wants this year. They aren't expecting anything but I am feeling guilty.

It started this morning when I went looking for things to at least make the morning some what fun. They have always said their favorite part is the stockings filled with an assortment of items tailor made to each kids likes. I am getting things here and there and hope it will be enough to appease my guilt.

The two older children having income of their own wanted to venture out to the mall tonight. It was busy but definitely not as busy as most years past. I got to people watch and pick up a few stocking items. Sara said we should do that every year just go the last weekend before Christmas and people watch and eat pretzels. Sounds like a new holiday traditions I could get into.

Only 4 more days till Christmas and all through the house cleaning has started and and menu is set. Megan even got her room almost totally clean and will put on the finishing touches tomorrow. She has a special present coming from Gramma that will totally take her mind of the lack of presents under the tree Christmas morning. Gramma saves the day again not only will she make her so very happy she got her to clean her room. Merry Christmas to me. I don't want to say what it is just in case she reads this before Christmas but I will hopefully have happy girl face pictures to post in a few days.

Its soooo cold tonight I am off to crawl under my covers and try to get warm and get some sleep I hope. Having the old insomnia problem again lately which I am getting quite irritated with.

Stay safe, stay warm, feel loved!!!!!

TTFN