Okay with that said I am still looking for that doctor that would like to start a new
business this time of year by putting people in drug induced comas till January 2.
Pretty sure we would have plenty of takers and would both be stinking rich.
I have been trying to roll with the punches as best as I can up till now but the “holidays” sap the reserves of positive thinking. I would ignore it all except every
where you turn you are reminded of it.
I was watching Dr. Phil yesterday and the topic was relationships falling apart because of the stress of the economy. It was mostly focused on the men in the relationship one was feeling like a losers because he couldn’t seem to support the family and was lashing out at his wife and the other didn’t feel like he needed to go out and get a job and laid everything in his wife’s lap. He has a law degree.
I have the pressure and stress of having to figure out how to pay bills with no money to pay it. So once again we are getting sucked into to the credit card void. I am mad that he went out and got the cards again but the flip side is that if it wasn’t for them we would be eating dirt and walking everywhere. But pretty soon even that will not be there.
So back to Dr. Phil, I feel a little like both guys. If I could find a full time job and suck it up we would be doing a hell of a lot better. Am I truly incapable of doing that or am I just being a baby. I have a hard enough time finding energy to do what I need to do on a daily basis as it is. I don’t have the educations for the jobs that would be fulfilling and the retail ones I could get will rob me of the time spend supporting my children in their various activities. I DON’T KNOW ANYMORE!!!
I promised myself that I would try and get into the holiday spirit this year. The past few years I have done minimal decoration and activity. I didn’t even make my yearly fudge for the teachers and bus drivers. I love the songs this time of year but not the actual holiday that’s weird in itself.
I know that there are thousands of families worse off than we are and don’t get me wrong I am grateful for the most part that we still have out home for now and that we do have food on the table. But the stress of daily concerns over the future of the basics needs being furnished not to mention the leaking roof, new car freaking out on me already, the camps the kids are already talking about for next summer, people and animals needing health care and the list goes on and on and on and I worry on an hourly basis.
So I think as I did last year this time since most of what I would write between now and the New Year will be mostly depressive and poor me ish I am going on “vacation” till next year. Have a safe and warm holiday see you on the other side hopefully.
Stay Safe, Stay Warm, Feel Loved Lots <3>
business this time of year by putting people in drug induced comas till January 2.
Pretty sure we would have plenty of takers and would both be stinking rich.
I have been trying to roll with the punches as best as I can up till now but the “holidays” sap the reserves of positive thinking. I would ignore it all except every
where you turn you are reminded of it.
I was watching Dr. Phil yesterday and the topic was relationships falling apart because of the stress of the economy. It was mostly focused on the men in the relationship one was feeling like a losers because he couldn’t seem to support the family and was lashing out at his wife and the other didn’t feel like he needed to go out and get a job and laid everything in his wife’s lap. He has a law degree.
I have the pressure and stress of having to figure out how to pay bills with no money to pay it. So once again we are getting sucked into to the credit card void. I am mad that he went out and got the cards again but the flip side is that if it wasn’t for them we would be eating dirt and walking everywhere. But pretty soon even that will not be there.
So back to Dr. Phil, I feel a little like both guys. If I could find a full time job and suck it up we would be doing a hell of a lot better. Am I truly incapable of doing that or am I just being a baby. I have a hard enough time finding energy to do what I need to do on a daily basis as it is. I don’t have the educations for the jobs that would be fulfilling and the retail ones I could get will rob me of the time spend supporting my children in their various activities. I DON’T KNOW ANYMORE!!!
I promised myself that I would try and get into the holiday spirit this year. The past few years I have done minimal decoration and activity. I didn’t even make my yearly fudge for the teachers and bus drivers. I love the songs this time of year but not the actual holiday that’s weird in itself.
I know that there are thousands of families worse off than we are and don’t get me wrong I am grateful for the most part that we still have out home for now and that we do have food on the table. But the stress of daily concerns over the future of the basics needs being furnished not to mention the leaking roof, new car freaking out on me already, the camps the kids are already talking about for next summer, people and animals needing health care and the list goes on and on and on and I worry on an hourly basis.
So I think as I did last year this time since most of what I would write between now and the New Year will be mostly depressive and poor me ish I am going on “vacation” till next year. Have a safe and warm holiday see you on the other side hopefully.
Stay Safe, Stay Warm, Feel Loved Lots <3>
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