I missed it. Megan’s first really football game. Her first tackle. I was wasting my time taking a test that was beyond stupid. Or I’m beyond stupid haven’t figured it out yet. Okay it was the test.

I hate missing things like that. I know I can’t be every where all the time but I try. It’s important to me to be there for my kids all the time or at least most of the time. But as time draws on and I haven’t been able to find a job that would allow me to be there for the kids I am getting closer and closer to having to take what I can get which means working for a company that needs you to be able to work when ever they need you.

I have entered into a funk brought on by pressure financially, family & the chronic pain I can’t seem to manage lately. Oh and the days are getting shorter and this is never a good time of year for me as it is.

So I am doing what I can to feel like I am doing what I can. I updated my resume and I am going to fill out another sub application for another school district to broaden my pool of days worked. And just keep treading water.

ttfn